Journal entry 1

Today I read my girlfriends poem. It was so beautiful that I about cried. I had to hold everything in so she didn't see the tears. She's really the most important person in my life. When I'm with her I feel like I'm floating. I wish people could see how truly amazing she's. We developed our own ways of communicating with each other. She makes the cutest of noises and does this super cute thing with her tongue. I love her with all my heart. I've never felt this close to someone in my life and I'm happy to have her be apart of it. We have our highs and lows but who doesn't? Mostly highs. Been trying to keep my bipolar under wraps by self medicating. Unfortunately the pills are going to run out extremely quickly faster than I had planned that they would. When I'm depressed it's funny cause the moment our body's interlock I am happy again. 99% of the day I'm thinking about her and the other 1% I'm thinking about what to do for the day if I'm not helping someone fix their problems. I never thought I'd ever find true happiness again and than I met her at work of all places. She mentioned in her poem that she remembers where I first took her and that was my favorite place to go. I replay that night sometimes in my head and all i want to do is do that again with her. She makes me feel loved and special. I don't know why I keep starving myself for she already loves me for me. I do need to get in better shape though but damn she is just omg amazing. There's no one and I mean no one else on this earth I'd rather be with than this beautiful Angel of mine. I think my so called friends get annoyed with me cause I'm always talking about her. What's not to say she's the peanut butter to my jelly. I wish I could wake up next to her every morning. She's got a smile that just brightens your day and the eyes of a goddess. I love her she's my one and only and the one I've been waiting for my entire life. The other day she called me a loser and said I'd always be a loser at first I was like seriously wtf and got all depressed and s**t and than I was like f**k that I'm going to show her I'm not and I am going to get my restruant management degree and a certificate in culinary. I love that she pushes me to do better for myself I love that she helps me with trying to fix my fucked up problem's. She truly cares.

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[Tsubaki Kuro]

Wow, This is the first journal I read on this site. It's neat. Keep at it.