im sorry

thoughts of suicide race through my head,

I feel so worthless and broken deep inside

Tried something new and couldn't do that right and now she's crying tonight

She asked to fix me and I said yes but I guess I'm to broken to be fixed

I just wish she would hold my hand or smile at me, kiss my cheek

baby please will you look at me, I don't understand what I did wrong but it's all my fault and this I don't know how to fix. All I want from her is a smile and a kiss for her to tell me she loves me.  I feel like I can't just have a normal relationship. I found the most perfect girl in the world and shes laying and arms length away from me but she doesn't even want to touch me. I don't know what to do but sit here and type it all out.  I like when she tries to help me I finally feel like someone acuatally cares.  I just don't know what to do anymore I love her to death and even after death I would still love her.  I won't give up on us she means to much to me to ever do that. she's the best part of my world.  I don't know how to explain to her that some s**t will take time.  I wish it was that easy to be able to undo some much s**t out of my life.  I'm sorry I starve myself I'm sorry for everything I'm about to do I'm sorry for being broken.