He Left

This goes out to someone who was once the most important person in my life.

I've been trying to find the right words to describe this pain for a year. Hundreds of ripped pages. I can't find the words. After four years you threw me away for a girl you've known for a few months. My skies have been dark, I've tried moving on, but I compare every guy I meet to you. I can no longer allow my walls to come down. I've pushed a lot of people away. Sometimes I wonder, do I ever come across your mind? Your smile, once brought a hurricane of butterflies to my stomach, but now I just cry at the sight of it. I just want to be able to say I hate you, but thata's not the case. You took my confidence and I can no longer believe the compliments I receive. I now know why it used to be so easy to write about you, I was completely in love with you. I no longer know what to write about or how to express my feelings because you took every part of me when you left, my thoughts and feelings included. I have so much to say to you, but I don't know how to say it. These pages will soon be torn because my words won't come out the way I'd like, they come out weak and boring, maybe even confusing. They were once strong, confident, and attention grabbing. I cannot win your love back, so it's time to let go. I wish you luck on your new journey, although it will not be with me. Thank you for teaching me how to love.

Author's Note

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