Dain Bramage.

I'll blend up that rainbow above you, and shoot it through your veins.

If you can't believe its not butter,

then its probably solidfied pee

buttering the nation's bread

from sea to shining sea.

 

Truth be told, I have no courage or pride.

And I'm makin promises to myself I will not keep

I'll just scratch out a few more useless lines

before I turn off the light and go back to sleep.

 

Thinking back to those days I knew I was wrong

wrapped up tight in my resentment,

I knew it all along

But before I got up to brave the cold

I swore to myself I'd never grow old.

 

covered in pastel dust and feeling sick

I'm up late again, I have no perception of time

waiting for that one song lyric to make things click

speaking in tongues I swear aren't mine

 

Doomed to be just another starving artist

hungry for recognition and never growing up

in love with every one of my multiple personalities

another future doctor or lawyer gone corrupt.

 

The mirror may be broken

but it still mocks and reflects

my lack of motivation and courage

and my ever-present self respect.

 

Give me just one thing to believe in

and one more long night of rest

to sleep off leftover and unused ambition

or just my faulty brain defects.

 

Tear out and display my lack of guts

for the whole world to judge and see

maybe they can figure out

just what the hell I'm supposed to be.

 

All the good lines come while I'm on the toilet

or stripped down in my shower

Poetry Gods summoning through my plumbing

to give my voice a little more power.

 

My curves are carving more dents in my mattress

and maybe one day I won't be able to climb out.

I'll just keep digging deeper holes

until I know what this fate thing is all about.

 

Author's Note

I can't be honest with even myself.

I'm still writing it, and I already hate it.
gahghaghaghahghaghahghagahhhhH!!!

Tell me how to fix it. If it can be salvaged at all.

Reviews

[Last Lying Look]

Honestly, Chloe, I don't think anything needs to be fixed.
I really liked it. Alot.
-Elissa :)