The Void

Not my best... but oh well I enjoyed writing it.

Falling, drowning, submerging

An intense galaxy that reaches beyond depths I do not know

This is the void

The void in which I live

 

Bandaged my heart and tied it up

Never let anyone in

Lock everyone out

For the unknown is imminent danger

 

Strangle the emotion

Don’t cry

For you may wash out every weakness

Drown yourself in the need to feel something

Don’t cry

Just leave it behind

Conceal everything and don’t tell anyone

  

I see the look in their eyes

Happiness

Joy

Security

Warmth

 

Love…

 

Blink again and it’s gone

For I have built my shield up

I will never feel that

How could I?

How can one love another when one doesn’t love oneself?

 

Return to the void

Where I am safe

Secure

Immune

 

But is abandoning all hope pain in itself?

Is distancing yourself opening new wounds?

Is fear of pain a blade ready to harm?

Tell yourself no

Tell yourself you are fine being by yourself

Tell yourself don’t cry

 

Don’t cry

Or at least…only cry when you are alone

No-one will ever know

Smile

Say you are fine

Compress the longing for someone to need you

To want you

 

Say the others are oblivious

That they are only slowly breaking

It’s self-destruction

A ticking time bomb

Nothing lasts forever

 

Or is that just an excuse?

A lie I tell myself to abandon my heart’s useless screams

It’s a merciless suicide

The death of a hope arising

 

So I return to The Void

Where I am comfortable

Where there is distance

Darkness

Isolation

Safety

A mask for me to hide behind

For now.

Author's Note

Let me know what you think :)

Reviews

[V. P. Trujillo]

The Void, is like a null-point in between worlds--different realities that simultaneously converge, yet are transparent over one another, unless one opens themselves to it. Dimensions, in other words. To be trapped in such a place between places...no wonder hope falters.

[Chloe_Spence]

Wow, thank you Vincent :)
I like hearing your insight :)

[♔ CrownedDevil &#..]

Beautiful poem, love it.

Kaze~ :-)

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you, Kaze :)

[♔ CrownedDevil ☾]

Your very welcome. :-)

[AprilRN1210]

I can identify with building up walls to defend yourself against that crippling pain from being hurt so deeply. It does make you "immune" to further pain, but unfortunately, also makes you immune to the pleasure that can be found again. It becomes your cage and your comfort.... Very nicely done...

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you very much April :)