The Void

Not my best... but oh well I enjoyed writing it.

Falling, drowning, submerging

An intense galaxy that reaches beyond depths I do not know

This is the void

The void in which I live

 

Bandaged my heart and tied it up

Never let anyone in

Lock everyone out

For the unknown is imminent danger

 

Strangle the emotion

Don’t cry

For you may wash out every weakness

Drown yourself in the need to feel something

Don’t cry

Just leave it behind

Conceal everything and don’t tell anyone

  

I see the look in their eyes

Happiness

Joy

Security

Warmth

 

Love…

 

Blink again and it’s gone

For I have built my shield up

I will never feel that

How could I?

How can one love another when one doesn’t love oneself?

 

Return to the void

Where I am safe

Secure

Immune

 

But is abandoning all hope pain in itself?

Is distancing yourself opening new wounds?

Is fear of pain a blade ready to harm?

Tell yourself no

Tell yourself you are fine being by yourself

Tell yourself don’t cry

 

Don’t cry

Or at least…only cry when you are alone

No-one will ever know

Smile

Say you are fine

Compress the longing for someone to need you

To want you

 

Say the others are oblivious

That they are only slowly breaking

It’s self-destruction

A ticking time bomb

Nothing lasts forever

 

Or is that just an excuse?

A lie I tell myself to abandon my heart’s useless screams

It’s a merciless suicide

The death of a hope arising

 

So I return to The Void

Where I am comfortable

Where there is distance

Darkness

Isolation

Safety

A mask for me to hide behind

For now.

Author's Note

Let me know what you think :)

Reviews

[V. P. Trujillo]

The Void, is like a null-point in between worlds--different realities that simultaneously converge, yet are transparent over one another, unless one opens themselves to it. Dimensions, in other words. To be trapped in such a place between places...no wonder hope falters.

[Chloe_Spence]

Wow, thank you Vincent :)
I like hearing your insight :)

[Antoñyo]

" Let me know what you think :) " she says...Okay, I will. I thought, "Holy $hirtsleeve!"
Despite the title I was still caught off guard by how much this hit home (6.7 on the Richter scale! ...fellow Califonians got that!) Seriously, I thought I'd be mentioning the second stanza, but the relating kept going....until basically "So I return to The Void Where I am comfortable" sums it all up!
Feeling pretty naked right now!
Effective

[Chloe_Spence]

My goodness Antonyo...
Thank you for your very kind words!

[Antoñyo]

Well deserved kind words... I love this about art! It can rip parts of our deepest self right out of us, and we are THANKING the person that tore us because we love and appreciate the beauty of the talent and willingness to share.
Bravo!

[Chloe_Spence]

I am speechless... you are too kind :)

[Frieda P]

You darkly colored outside the lines, I always enjoy that...nicely pen'd!

[Chloe_Spence]

Wow.... thank you so much I am very grateful :)

[Frieda P]

I read you're only 15 Chloe, I could have never done such a job at that age....my pleasure! :)

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you :)

[Frieda P]

Keep penning, you'll go far............

[Madalyn Beck]

Great job with this. I enjoyed it and I know I've felt these words before. They linger in my soul as a part of a past that I always fear may rear it's ugly head again. FEAR. It holds us all back, yet at the same time, can be what pushes us forward. All we need is a change of perspective. ;)

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you so much Madalyn :)

[Brook]

Beautiful write. You did a great job. Love it :)

[Chloe_Spence]

I appreciate your words, Brookly :)

[Luna Zerimar]

Chlo, you're such a good writer.

I can't even...I'm speechless.

I felt every word. Every. Little. Word.

I relate to this so well.

Almost brought me to tears.

-Hugs- I loved this.

[Chloe_Spence]

Thanks Jessica!

*hugs back*

[Luna Zerimar]

You're welcome.

[Sami Khalil]

A splendid read and write...Thank you for posting...:).....................

[Jennie Baron]

Technically, the presentation of this poem is exquisite with the repetition of similar motifs. As for the content, I can almost feel the pain and I think nearly anyone can relate. It's easy in such a situation to imagine that everyone else simply must be happy. I've felt the same way and felt so hopeless that the only thing I could do was keep repeating that it would eventually pass. I'm so glad you shared this, Chloe.

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you very Much Jennie :) You are too kind :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

I guess we all put up walls to protect ourselves from being hurt.This is such a emotional poem.Great work Chloe :)

[Chloe_Spence]

Thank you, Vidya :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

You are welcome :)