The Unforeseen Knife: A Prayer

A first person prayer to God.

Hold me close, dear God,

I'm feeling the toll of this life,

This burden,

Like an unforeseen knife,

Sudden pain overtakes me,

Violent, wretched pain,

And I wonder what I have to gain,

By staying on this earth at all.

I'm trying to heal the blow dealt to me,

But through the pain I can hardly see,

Voices tell me, "Go here, go there,"

And I scrape up energy to oblige.

With the circumstances,

I don't see the chances,

Of the knife in me,

Ever being removed,

And treating the wound properly.

I know I have reasons to be happy,

But with this knife, this pain...

I just might go insane!

You see my attempts, my efforts,

My wings, broken now, are unused,

As I try to deal with this wound,

Sometimes I'm able to shove my pity and sorrow,

Out of my mind, and think of better times,

Of times when putting one foot in front of he other,

Was not a struggle, and I had peace with my fellow brothers.

But, on days like today, the cover washes away,

And I feel empty, naked, and ashamed.

Lord, do you see my try?

Don't you hear me cry?

I've held off asking, "Why?"

But, I'm just appalled at this pain,

And why I must bear it.

I'm trying to trust You,

I really do,

But, this knife...

I just can't seem to understand,

Why you won't reach out Your hand,

And remove this hindrance from my life.

I must sound whiny to you, but,

My feelings are true,

But, I suppose...

That doesn't make not trusting you alright.

God, I've given up,

My soul is raw with grief,

Give me some hope to keep,

In this fractured heart of mine.

You see the outcome,

Easier than I read an open book,

So, let me lay on Your lap,

As You tell me that it'll be alright,

Tell me together, we will win this fight.

Forgive my distrust, it is like rust,

And will eat away my faith if I allow,

So just hold me now.

As the tears flow.

Promise You'll never let me go.

Author's Note

I know you are not supposed to use "I" or "you" but I decided to ignore that because this is a personal prayer.

Reviews

[StayAnchored]

There is no better way to write than in first person and to our Heavenly Father! This is a beautiful expression of your prayer! :)

[RandomAuthorOverHere]

Thanks so much! :D

[Insight "MH"]

Magnificent writing, you have poured all the feelings that were in your heart to this poem, and it came out so nice. Thank you for sharing.

Insight.

[RandomAuthorOverHere]

Thank you! It means a lot to hear that.

[Insight "MH"]

You are mostly welcome.

[Kimberly Navarro]

A beautiful description of a desperate prayer from a broken hearted forlorn soul. I have been there before. I might still be there. One thing i try not to lose is hope and faith. Be blessed, spread love- Kim

[RandomAuthorOverHere]

That's good advice. ;) Thanks