Dear new me!

Wanted to write a poem which sounded like a poem yet that was my life experience but when my life took a turn I wrote my heart out! Love sucks!

I know I will not get a reply but still
Dear new me,
I am happy with the new found you
I hated the old you
Always stuck up on things you had no control over
Always loving those that would never see your worth
Always missing the girls that never missed you when you passed them
Always crying over spilt milk
Always caring about yourself than you did others
Dear old me I never did get the chance to thank you but you did help new me get were I am
You hid when the fights started
S*** today things took a crappy turn
I hate this feeling!
Dear new me can you hand this?
Wish old me was. Around he would know what to do
Do I call or should I text him
Should I take him back
Or should maintain the new found me?
This started as a piece but is no longer
Its just me expressing myself
I want to eat right now but may be later
I was so close to loving I feel I did
I hate this feeling and that's why I don't let my guard down so easily
But this time I did and For the first time I was ready to let go and love
Would have wrote dear diary but hate diary entries
I feel better now but dear new me Think and not feel
Using your brain is better look where your heart got you!