Anxious

Shake my brain like an etch n sketch

Start all over again

The intrusive thoughts come rushing in

Like so many little men

I don't think anyone loves me

But I also think I'm just crazy

Shaking hands, hard beating heart

Being in public is ominous

I'll learn to breathe

One day

Reviews

[VALORMORE DE PLUME]

I can relate. I share that pain. My Wife and I are fairly reclusive. Always have been. We don't follow trends or keep up with the Joneses. If people don't like what they see, they better stay out of my face because I'm rubber and they are glue.
As for you dear friend, I'm sending Blessings to you in all that you do.
God is the only true friend.
With Love,
VDP

[Chidoriflower]

Thank you sm for the review! I like your metaphor, "rubber and glue." I'm glad to see you on this site still. Bless your heart, really. I don't mean that sarcastically either.

[VALORMORE DE PLUME]

I believe you are very special. Some of us are unique. That feels like a burden, of conflicting paths, at times. We struggle in the mundane madness of others expectations, when all we need is the freedom of acceptance. Complements seem hollow contrivances, or acquiescence. Be true to yourself and be at peace, inwardly.

[Simone Davis]

I completely understand this, it's exactly how I feel it's so hard when you have intrusive thoughts you start to believe them when they are simply not true...stay strong you can and will get through it.

[Chidoriflower]

Thank you, it is hard. It sucks! I've been trying out different ways to get through it. I really would like to look into therapy but I'm not sure if Im able to. I'm glad you could relate to this, not as glad that u got donald trump talking in ur head (thats what ive been calling my intrusive thoughts lately)