Blegh

Blegh

A Poem by Chidoriflower
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I can't write too well rn, i keep wanting to but the words just get all screwy like my heart is

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You said you wanted me

You said it and I never forced you to

You told me you loved me

Multiple times, you told me to never forget too

But all you can say now is how you are so sorry

Saying that you miss me, your words full of rue

No one can help the way they feel, but I feel so silly

Crying over you, thinking of you, trying to get over you

For so long I was just alone, just not good enough, just crazy

If I wasn’t good enough and I made you feel the same

Why the lies when you could have let go without the memories, the pain?

Why did you talk about the weddings, the kids, the houses we could have had?

How come after all this, I can’t hold you and ask you to not think you’re bad?

Why am I still worrying, why do I love you, I shouldn't be allowed to

And the only thing I can say now, is that love songs are relentlessly cruel

© 2017 Chidoriflower


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Would that I could, spread a blanket in the tall grass. Upon that special blanket, a soft warm breeze ushers all manner of loving memories to hold until they overflow. Then a beautiful hummingbird hovers while singing of the joy it feels from our happiness in that wondrous moment. When leaving that blanket and the weight of days makes us low, that tiny bird flitters near, to remind us of the great love we hold within. We are able to lift those around us, just by smiling like that tiny bird does for us. Love is an infectious activity that we all need to practice, in order to perfect it.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Chidoriflower

5 Years Ago

That was beautiful. Thank you for your wise and pretty words.



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All I can think of is an old Carole King song from the 70s...not a love song.
I have to say this, however. Sounds to me as though your ex is something of an a-hole.


It's gonna take some time this time
To get myself in shape.
I really fell out of line this time,
I really missed the gate.
The birds on the telephone like, (next time)
Are cryin' out to me, (next time)
And I won't be so blind next time,
And I'll find some harmony.
But it's going to take some time this time,
And I can't make demands.
But, like the young trees in the winter time,
I'll learn how to bend.
After all the tears we've spent,
How could we make amends?
So, it's one more round for experience
And I'm on the road again,
And it's going to take some time this time.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Chidoriflower

5 Years Ago

She really was an a*****e. Cheated on me like three times. I still forgave her though, even while sh.. read more
Chidoriflower

5 Years Ago

Thank you for the review btw! I will check out that song
Would that I could, spread a blanket in the tall grass. Upon that special blanket, a soft warm breeze ushers all manner of loving memories to hold until they overflow. Then a beautiful hummingbird hovers while singing of the joy it feels from our happiness in that wondrous moment. When leaving that blanket and the weight of days makes us low, that tiny bird flitters near, to remind us of the great love we hold within. We are able to lift those around us, just by smiling like that tiny bird does for us. Love is an infectious activity that we all need to practice, in order to perfect it.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Chidoriflower

5 Years Ago

That was beautiful. Thank you for your wise and pretty words.
It sucks when a relationship ends like this, all you can think of are the good times and could have beens, and it's so friggen sad that all you can do is cry.
But hey, you'll find someone to really make your dreams come true, I did. Just be patient and everything will fall into place like stars in the night sky.

Posted 7 Years Ago


Chidoriflower

7 Years Ago

You're righttt. It's really sad. And since it was so long too (the relationship), it's going to take.. read more
Sad. But good. Love is stupid though. Smoke weed and masturbate.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Chidoriflower

7 Years Ago

Thank you. That is acc good advice, I do those two last things lol

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Added on May 19, 2017
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Chidoriflower
Chidoriflower

R.I.P, CA



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I love reading, from YA books to classic English literature. Writing is my vent usually. I'm gay as hell. I like food, anime, videogames, and traditional dances. (Like waltzing, salsa, west/east coast.. more..

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