a matter of mathematics and common senseA Poem by Philip GaberYou left the party early. Again. Kept whispering in my ear, “I have this social anxiety disorder. I’m very uncomfortable. I’m sorry, I can’t do this.” You were wearing clothes that had the morning headlines written all over them
and I was anxious to do a readability index on
you; but you disappeared before I could even recall
the formula to measure it. I figured I couldn’t do anything for you,
anyway, but thought maybe I could have at least... But probably not. When I got home, I called you. Got your voicemail. You were probably hiding under the sheets. Sweating. Crying. Petitioning somebody. Maybe the Lord. Maybe just your shrink. Who knows? You always had very secular beliefs. Didn’t laugh much in those days. Hardly cracked a smile. Slept twelve, thirteen hours a day. Ate next to nothing. Whenever you did have contact with the world it was always from a comfortable distance. You were always reluctant to talk about yourself. Your past. Your future. Didn’t even talk about your job as a dispatcher for a cable TV company. At night, you sat in front of the TV under a blanket, even in July and August. Kept your thermostat at 65 year round. “One way or another I get what I need,” you told me the day before your birthday. You were turning thirty. I came over. Gave you a present. A papier-mache elephant. You about cried, but laughed instead. Fortunately, my feelings weren’t hurt. But then again I was a lot better at
compartmentalizing my feelings in those days. © 2024 Philip Gaber |
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Added on August 8, 2024 Last Updated on August 8, 2024 AuthorPhilip GaberCharlotte, NCAboutI hate writing biographies. I was one of those kids who rode a banana seat bike and watched Saturday morning cartoons and Soul Train. But my mother would never buy any of those sugary cereals for us k.. more..Writing
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