just another easy-to-believe tragicomedy

just another easy-to-believe tragicomedy

A Poem by Philip Gaber


Think it was 1990…
 
Funny how you can’t remember dates when you’ve been alone for so long.
 
Seems like somebody was always pulling a gun on me in those days. Something about sleeping with women I wasn’t supposed to be sleeping with. Fortunately, I never got shot. Little muscle pain every now and then. But that’s why they invented aspirin.
 
Eventually, I’d move on.
 
Usually, I meet some woman with a flushed face and puffy eyes living in a sleepy, sleepy town, unlike some of those burgs in Cheshire County, New Hampshire.
 
She’d ask about my past, and I’d shrug a little and mumble something about “kicking a dead horse.” She’d look at me like I had no sense of humor and wonder who this American stereotype was, but somehow, we’d always end up locked in a static embrace after trying to achieve a higher form of bliss.
 
Come morning, she’d wake up with neck pain from using my knee cap as a pillow, and I’d have cramps from attempting to perform one of those tantric methods, so we’d take a non-habit forming prescription painkiller because that’s what they were invented for, and spend the rest of the day determining which one of us could go through a needle’s eye without overdosing.
 
We’d come down off an inauthentic high a few hours later, and she’d ask me some trick questions like, “So, what did you ditch your inert and restless life in search of a more authentic experience?”
 
I’d show a polite grin and say, “Just on a one-man mission to find something morally positive,” and she’d accept that. Still, I could tell she’d be thinking I was just another one of those t-shirted slackers trying like hell to break away from his family’s pathological path… and she was right… always searching for the ring of truth by going down blind alleys, stranded in the middle of a mythic American dream.
 
Then she’d go into the kitchen and start mixing screwdrivers in those little juice boxes, and I’d go off on another one of my lonesome ruminations and suddenly begin not to trust my memory.
 
She’d return twenty minutes later, drained and pale, hand me my drink, glancing anxiously at the clock, force a smile, and say, “I’ve always felt capable of great friendships and kindnesses.
But I am strange. I do come from a different place.”
 
Suddenly, her eyes would fill with tears, and I’d reach out and take her hand. “Well, at least you’re not somebody whose worldview is often obscured by an inability to fathom much of anything, like me,” I’d say, and she’d smile and make some comment like, “So much dysfunction and chaos in your backstory, man, so much existential absurdity.”
 
As usual, I’d have no comment or argument and wouldn’t even feel guilty about it.
 
There’d be a silent but perceptible teeth grinding there, and with that, she’d lock the door, and we’d go back to bed.
 
Because that’s what beds were invented for.

© 2024 Philip Gaber


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Philip Gaber
Philip Gaber

Charlotte, NC



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