What in the Actual F**k

You took my heart,

I took yours,

Thought it was all a trade.

But then you went and turned mine into a f*****g grenade.

We fell so deep,

It all felt real again.

Finally had my lover,

and my best friend.

But now I'm a fool for thinking that your words were true.

They stick like thorns and its hurting to try and pull them through.

You told me forever, us, its me and you.

And that other girl on your phone seems to believe it too.

We talked about the house that we would build together.

We talked about the ring that would symbolize forever.

Picked out kid's names that we thought were clever.

But now I realize my planned future has turned to never.

I could feel my heart pounding in my chest.

When I read those texts making you just like the rest.

My heart shattered when you closed the door.

And I was crying once you left the porch.

And I was screaming, in my pillow, when you hit the road.

I was shaking and my nerves went into overload.

You f*****g broke me.

You swiped my world right from under me.

I didn't realize how vulnerable Love had let me be.

Your ship is sailing while I'm drowning in the f*****g sea.

Tears are burning as they surface all around my eyes.

I try to smile but it's just a horrible disguise.

I'm feeling hollow and its no surprise.

I've emptied all of myself with how much I've cried.

I was doing well until you exposed that night.

I hit the ground so fast, no time to try and catch flight.

I'm back to rebuilding myself and bringing back my light.

You were almost the death of me, but I'm putting up a good fight.

Reviews

[Mirror]

Dear oh dear!!! Hurts. Hurts so bad. I wonder how it feels to cheat. should i give a try :) (Just thinking).

[ruth]

i feel the pain in this poem.

sorry to say but... life sucks