One�s Own Deception

 

An empty blank look appears to conceal her yearning aching heart

As time moves forward and her heart agonizes for his touch

Hunger for the unconditional love and touch of someone beyond her reach

Memories of his words destroyed her mentality and emotionally

Torment as his words ran through her mind over and over again

The world believed her to be pleased and content with life

Yet her heart tortured her as she watched him be with another

A journey had begun to hate and forget all that he meant to her

As devastation would eat her alive unless she could stop feeling

Time slowly passed as her heart hardened becoming numb

Memories of love slowly forgotten never to be found or felt again

Consequences were not important only to feel something, anything

An endless quest to find the touch that she would never uncover

Quickly her feelings of loneliness consumed her body and soul

Then unforeseen attention leads her down the wrong path

Things done that can not be undone or wished away

Realization of her action, tear her to pieces causing endless pain

Looking into the mirror only to hate the person looking back

Devastation takes over as actions could not be wished away

Deception tearing apart the significance in her own beliefs

Exposing her weakness giving in to betrayal of the highest

Time passes only to dull the spirit damaging the heart further

Innocent flirtation with the man she thought so no longer loved

An unexpected rekindled bliss swept her away to feel passion again

A moment in time changed her soul forever as she realized her soul mate

Within seconds a look and touch flooded her with emotion

Emotion she thought she had lost and forgotten as her heart was numb

Awareness hits that love for this man had never stopped

All attempts at forgetting what she felt for him were for nothing

She never wanted anyone more than for him to be with her now

Her worst fear emerged as she wanted to be with him till her last breathe

He still had a hold of her heart and all that she had in her soul

She couldn’t go back nor could she go forward

She had to reveal her betrayal so he knew of her deception

Guilty she was and has agonized over her own wrong doing

Ripping the heart exposing the destruction of values further

She will hold dear the moments that made her come alive again

She would never feel alive again but would move forward without him

One’s Own Deception cast a spell over her own true loves happiness

 

 

Copyright ©2003 Sheri Lynn Webber

Author's Note

Written in 2003.