I'm afraid

About the fear of approaching something we love...

I'm afraid that I'll be like

a frozen dinner

heat me up quick

only to find me

lacking of taste

and of a strange consistency

I'm afraid that you'll

Find everybody else

seems like plagiarism

of something you've 

never read before

That the animals in the zoo

seem more free than you

I'm afraid of feeling

afraid

when I'll have 

to part

the Red sea

to see you

or for you to see me

I don't want to seem

like a mummy

without a sarcophagus

Like a band-aid

without a cut underneath

You told me

my eyes were as 

vacant as the sea

this gave me reactions

with no feelings

or feelings with no reactions

I fear you'll see me

as a parking lot

with no parking spaces

and finding all the 

cars are running on empty

It would be painful

if you saw me 

as a preschooler of life

still learning about

the elementary colors

and how to walk in 

a single file

still mesmerized 

about a spinning globe

before my eyes

It would be scary if

you saw me as

a virgin

of everything

that means something

in this choking world

I can't take it

if you see me as a churning

waterfall

that doesn't quench you

I don't want you

 to find out

that I hung myself

a long time ago

but I was actually

sitting on a chair

thinking about

how life isn't fair

Perhaps if you

saw all this

while I hide my face

and still remained

I would feel God, 

regained 

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

This is a piece with something for everyone...you have packed so many images and scenarios into your expressed insecurities that it's virtually impossible to see ourselves in at least some of these stanzas...the wordplay that powers each metaphor is packed with an ominous kind of wit that I don't see very often...this is an amazingly crafted piece, one that makes it hard to quote specific parts (though I never like doing that anyway)...many of them are addressed to a singular person, which had me putting all of these metaphors together in my mind and coming with one predominant fear: a fear of not being accepted for being yourself, or a fear of not being accepted for your imperfections in spite of the fact that we all have them...this poem spoke volumes to me and had me wishing that I could present these images with such linguistic creativity...one of my favourites from your catalogue...great work Frontier.

[Frontier]

Thanks Kubla, for one of your many in-depth, assuring reviews. Reading this one the highlight of my night. :)

[kublakhan27]

So glad that you enjoy my insights...always a pleasure my friend :)

[Cory Barrett]

Frontier, I enjoyed this writing so very much. I found each of the stanza their own poems colliding to be greater.

[Frontier]

I'm glad to hear, Streamline

[Matching Socks]

You had some really great lines in here: pre-schooler of life...

Fear, what to say about fear.
It's actually healthy, keeps us in check.

You just have to keep an eye on the fear meter so you now when to give it some slack.
In good time. :)

Enjoyed reading.

[Frontier]

Hey! and thanks, that is great advice.

[John A. Ayala]

A poetic voice with such genuine and delicate concerns proves alluring to kindred spirits.

[Frontier]

Thanks, glad you stopped by :)

[h d e rushin]

mike tyson said "that sometime fear comes to warm the room", then he went forth to knock
other men senseless. Perhaps being afraid is the only emotion that you cant misinterpred
as something else. It is terror, trepidation and some painful agitation all clumped together
in one giant ball..This is a love poem. One where you wish, more than anything , that the
amplified broadcast signal of it has been transmitted carefully:

"it would be scary if you saw me
as a virgin of everything
that means something
in this choking world"

We who write poetry in the 21st century must re-evaluate the role of woman in romantic relationships
not just as excited pursuit or tragic doom makers. But also, as you have suggested, as sensitive
and equal partners capable of passion, vulnerability and aesthetic responses

I like this writing style.
well done. dana

[Frontier]

Yes, this review made me think...I agree that this side of relationships (men and women) should be be given more exposure. Fear is one of the most visceral of emotions. Thanks Dana.

[Jessica Lynn Polley]

I love the vulnerability in this. The feeling of lacking even the fundamental things that make us human is something I can relate to. The metaphors are all well played and easily understood and the feelings you portrayed are potent.

That the animals in the zoo
seem more free than you

This line is my favorite it really stuck out to me.

[Frontier]

Thanks Jessica! It makes me happy that readers can relate, and enjoy. I'm glad you like that line because I was debating about whether to leave it.

[willweb]

This was great Frontier. I enjoyed everything about this, but this stanza I really liked:

I fear you'll see me

as a parking lot

with no parking spaces

and finding all the

cars are running on empty

[Frontier]

Yes thats one of the most interesting ones, thanks for stopping by :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

"seems like plagiarism of something you've never read before"
what a great line....all of the similes and metaphors here enhance the theme of being so afraid that we will disappoint...and yes, sometimes life is not fair...and we do hide our face...but eventually we will regain the spirit... rather than having "reactions with no feelings" or vice-versa.
your poetry is astonishing in its depth...and what you do with your words, and your specifically good short lines.

[Frontier]

I also think thats one of the most attention-grabbing lines on here. Thank you, thank you.