I'm afraid

About the fear of approaching something we love...

I'm afraid that I'll be like

a frozen dinner

heat me up quick

only to find me

lacking of taste

and of a strange consistency

I'm afraid that you'll

Find everybody else

seems like plagiarism

of something you've 

never read before

That the animals in the zoo

seem more free than you

I'm afraid of feeling

afraid

when I'll have 

to part

the Red sea

to see you

or for you to see me

I don't want to seem

like a mummy

without a sarcophagus

Like a band-aid

without a cut underneath

You told me

my eyes were as 

vacant as the sea

this gave me reactions

with no feelings

or feelings with no reactions

I fear you'll see me

as a parking lot

with no parking spaces

and finding all the 

cars are running on empty

It would be painful

if you saw me 

as a preschooler of life

still learning about

the elementary colors

and how to walk in 

a single file

still mesmerized 

about a spinning globe

before my eyes

It would be scary if

you saw me as

a virgin

of everything

that means something

in this choking world

I can't take it

if you see me as a churning

waterfall

that doesn't quench you

I don't want you

 to find out

that I hung myself

a long time ago

but I was actually

sitting on a chair

thinking about

how life isn't fair

Perhaps if you

saw all this

while I hide my face

and still remained

I would feel God, 

regained 

Reviews

[kublakhan27]

This is a piece with something for everyone...you have packed so many images and scenarios into your expressed insecurities that it's virtually impossible to see ourselves in at least some of these stanzas...the wordplay that powers each metaphor is packed with an ominous kind of wit that I don't see very often...this is an amazingly crafted piece, one that makes it hard to quote specific parts (though I never like doing that anyway)...many of them are addressed to a singular person, which had me putting all of these metaphors together in my mind and coming with one predominant fear: a fear of not being accepted for being yourself, or a fear of not being accepted for your imperfections in spite of the fact that we all have them...this poem spoke volumes to me and had me wishing that I could present these images with such linguistic creativity...one of my favourites from your catalogue...great work Frontier.

[Frontier]

Thanks Kubla, for one of your many in-depth, assuring reviews. Reading this one the highlight of my night. :)

[kublakhan27]

So glad that you enjoy my insights...always a pleasure my friend :)

[rodrigogour]

I love the raw descriptions of insecurity we've all felt. It chilled me to the bones. Nicely done!

[Frontier]

Thanks, I'm glad it did. :)

[paul sal.....]

well, the sea is not vacant and neither are you, I dont see primary colors as a bad thing, and if all the I's are not you , who are you referencing ? Such a powerful depiction of shunned love........it is fools that don't behold the beauty and the only thing thing that should hang is the callousness of the human species

[Frontier]

well i'm glad it impacted you somehow, Paul.
I wasnt saying they were bad, in fact I wasn't saying anything was bad.

[Sunya]

Amazing :) visualized everything..i have a question though, if the poem is focused on one character, would it be a pre-relationship phase or a post relationship phase?
A spinning globe still mesmerizes me :p hehe

[Frontier]

It's a little of both...strangely haha :)

[Nusquam Esse]

Wow, I can really relate with this one. When you look inside, and while you may see something of worth, you don't see how it can ultimately matter to someone else. So you feel as though you lack something key, not sure exactly what, perhaps an attachment to an idealized naivety? So you always feel incomplete and inadequate, even if you may have something to offer; is it what they actually need? Sure, perhaps you could be the mummy in their Sarcophagus (I swear that I did not intend that as an innuendo, although now I am laughing at the idea); but you can't help but fear that instead you might be the band-aid in their Sarcophagus-- pretty much the most pathetic archeological discovery ever.

[Frontier]

hahaha!! Yea what a strange/funny innuendo, thanks Nusquam!

[Savannah Bly]

We fear a lot. Fear is the emotion that stops life. Naturally, it is an emotion we can't live without. You captured this emotion into tangible reality. Great job.

[Frontier]

Absolutely true...thanks Savannah

[just Penny]

Each negative thought unfolds in the stanzas, almost like another form of self-sabotage where over thinking everything paralyses any positive connotation. I have been in this place and it's dark and lonely. Nicely done. Penny

[Frontier]

Quite an interesting interpretation, thanks...my intent was for it to sink in quick...

[Ian Gilmour]

The brutal nature of the subject matter contrasts incredibly well with the gentle mindfulness of your poetic style. "Like a band-aid without a cut underneath" is great. I feel as though just that in itself opens the doors to so many possibility, both metaphorical and otherwise and the image of it, even the way it sounds, is cool beyond words. I plan on reading this again!

[Frontier]

I really like this review, and Im glad it stirred you. I agree that line is very metaphorical, perhaps the worst "cuts" can't be seen. Thanks Ian.

[Taylor_McCutcheon]

this is beautiful! Your metaphors are amazing and very imaginative :)

[Frontier]

Thanks for stopping by Taylor!

[Coyote Poetry]

My Poet friend. You wrote a masterpiece for life and knowing yourself. This poem would need a pot of coffee and a long conversation. I do feel caged myself. I wish to be able to escape and know real laughter and freedom. No weakness in the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Frontier]

Im glad you felt it like that :)