A Different Voice

What shall I do ?

He dumped me ...

shall I go over every tiny detail 

and wonder how it could have been different 

if only i'd tried harder it might of worked out

shall I allow my anger to twist up my thoughts 

and hate the man to push him away 

and make me feel better 

shall I believe that I must not be good enough 

that there must be something wrong with me 

that I am not lovable enough 

isolate myself and punish myself by 

starving my feelings and eating nothing today

and locking myself in my room for days on end 

not allowing my friends and people who care to see me 

to avoid showing them how I feel out of some sense of shame 

and embarrassment 

shall I push people away with anger 

to hide my hurt and sadness for this loss 

and live in a detached bubble for a while 

swimming in pain and then self pity 

for how very useless I am 

and that being perfect is the only thing acceptable 

in my life 

No

I will not 

(I will try something different 

Something  a little more loving)

I will Try...

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A sad and powerful emotional journey in this poem. Heartache can lead us to a bad place. I believe good to back away for a time to gather thoughts and mind. The poem is honest and direct. I did like the positive ending. Can't allow negative to slow us down. Thank you for the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[Earthy Mumma Soul]

Thank you for your wisdom . :)

[Perfect Mistake]

Again beautifully written. The begininning shows desperation then has hope that things will change and get better, Good job :)

[Distant horizons]

Wonderful. Love the positivity of the ending after such heartache. beautifully crafted.