He is you ....... ( How long the rabbits hole, how dark how deep )

Shallow breath, mind

breaking

to a memory of you 

and still, you take up far too much room

in my fragile head space

I dont know whats going on anymore

my broken caged child 

with broken wings that wanted to fly to you 

to someone or anyone...

made up an image of you

which just didnt fit the dark glove 

of you 

dark hearts 

getting lost in the ghostly mirarge 

of broken fantasies 

reality shattered me 

of the dark heart of you 

your crime that you hide so well 

making me feel guilty for your shame

making me feel smaller 

lost in a glass bowel 

im going to die here 

a rage bubble as a last grasp attepmt to gain power

or control of which I seemt to have none 

your sick smiling cups getting fuller 

for knowing this so well  

using my weeknessess against me 

but you know the truth 

but 

anyway

  you still

    play the cups 

       holding them out 

       any 

        last

         grasp 

drip 

 drip 

  drip 

through the energy fields 

draining my reserves 

an ubilicle cord leading to the glass bubble

i'm trying to scream but no words

seem to come 

i've been screaming 

as far as I can remember 

this larger thicker gray umbilicle cord is long 

snake like

it seems to control me

further,deeper 

this tale is darker than I thought

violent breath covers me like a misty fog

I dont understand 

I cant breathe 

mind shuts down now

the gates firmly closing 

I attempt the put my hands through the gates 

to keep them open 

but im far too small and weak for that

I wont give up though 

maybe tomorrow I 

will get a chance to go deeper into the rabbit hole 

( feel like alice in wonderland )

 

Who am I  ??? 

Reviews

[light and ashes]

Okay.....for starters... I have to say.. This is SO good..so well written.
I'm not sure what's it's about though. I think I have an idea, but I'm not sure if I am right.