A Prayer Book

I started noticing this dull heavy ache 

what could it be 

it was in my heart center 

and felt tight and restricting 

I try to ignore it as it didn't feel very nice 

but now I feel that maybe it would be a good idea to be a little curious 

that's what they say 

to try and be curious 

so here I am 

being curious 

so what is it this feeling in my heart 

i'm trying to breathe in to it 

and stop being so afraid 

thoughts of self hatred arise 

an aversion to seeing things as they really are maybe 

lacking any real compassion 

easier to hate self and push away 

but really.. 

so I stay a little longer 

I'm still not sure what it is 

I ask the angels for guidance

"angels above what is it i'm feeling?"

in the depths of myself 

and do I indeed need to know 

maybe I just need to acknowledge this tension 

and just give it time 

stay with it 

let things go with their own flow  

and let go of my need to control 

i'm afraid of myself you see  

afraid of what lies inside 

deep inside 

rotten insides keep me afraid 

but i'm told there's a gem underneath

many in fact 

beautiful sparkling bright divine 

So I keep here a little longer 

with my breath 

with this Heart ,

ever hopeful .

Reviews

[Pax Analog]

What's striking about this revelatory piece is how it rings so true for virtually anybody. The recurrent crises of the species are all ultimately of a spiritual nature, of a certain contraction of the Heart (capitalized to distinguish it from personal sentimentality). The human instrument is capable of divine expression, but it requires a radical repolarization as to the very nature of Being. Ideally, loving one another w/more transpersonal grace is a principal means of Heart opening. Thanks for the eloquent confessional catalyst.

[Earthy Mumma Soul]

Wow.. Only just read this review with my present being .. Thank you for your great review! Appreciated .