I Lied When I Said I Could Write You Away

I know things had been wrong with us for months without me having to be told
But my heart froze that night in November when you left me alone in the cold
Do I sometimes cross your mind? Do you miss the feel of my skin?
Does my voice sound in your head? Do you wonder where I‘ve been?
Living in the here and now I’m still stuck on the then
Despite all the games we played, I don’t think either of us really did win
I know that I am selfish, but I’m ready to play another hand
I dare you to call my bluff. I’m itching for pain that I can’t stand
Surrounded by boys with needles and thread, I’m unraveling quite fast
They refuse to stitch me up, I need a dose that will somehow last
So bring that rusty scalpel here and cut me up real nice
The pain and loathing you brought me was always my biggest vice
I gave up on love the night he decided I wasn’t good enough to do
Not only do you think that, but everyone else does too, it‘s true
However, unlike all the rest of them, you kept coming back to my door
I don’t care if it’s ‘cause you missed me or wanted to break me more
I’m ready to be broken again. Baby, please use me until there’s nothing left
I won’t mind the collateral damage, and I certainly won’t mind the death
Sex, Drugs and Rock’n Roll; it’s the sacred trinity
But, darling, me and you only ever needed two out of the three
The stars keep on shining as the world spins cruelly on
I’m only biding my time until the day I will be gone
My body is a public park; anyone can come and play
Yet every time that it gets dark, no one wants to stay.
I’m begging you in my great despair to come back to me
And I’ll slip that blindfold on and pretend that I don’t see
Love me, hate me, fix me, rape me
Want me, kill me, reject me, thrill me
Take me or forget me
I’ll just pretend that I don’t see
I’m too hard to heal, and no matter what I won’t feel
So come sweetly and quietly to me
Or don’t.
Either way, I’ll pretend that I don’t see.
I’ll pretend that I don’t see