So weak and so strong

My heart doesn't want to be here inside of me for a while.
Feels like for the first time he is smarter than my thoughts.
For a moment I thought love was about think in someone and their needs before yours.
And no matter I confess I don't know how I will stand up again if I loose you. I don't want to have you just because I want it.
I want the best for you.
And sometimes I don't provide the best thing you deserve.
I feel so far to be the best for you.
But.
Maybe is also a selfish feeling of a mediocre person that can be the best.
Give up.
That is easy.