Are you listening God? It's me [insert name here]

Body issues has been a bit of an obsession of mine since I was a kid and when I started getting into body photography that gave a voice to acceptance of yourself I become inspired to make this

Are you there God? It's [insert name here]

Losing weight
I just want happiness
Cut the weight off with scissors
Squeeze the body to perfection
Chubby models
Look like me
Skinny images what I want
Love body at every angle
I must lose weight
Disfigured lumps stretched skin sores claws
No self esteem
Zero calories zero carbs zero fat
Flat curved back
Comfort in sleep
Giving up let it be fat forever
Distended stomach lopsided shape
Sexuality
Feeling up body
Normalcy self awareness follow the crowd your own choice a leader
acceptance of self
Huge humps
Show only part never the whole too hard to see too depressing
Scale lies eyes deceive mind tricks comforts
Baggy pants not enough inches don't satisfy scale never moves hovering numbers for years decades past centuries
Before after others progress you fail stick to the deal diet exercise excuses valid points
Hope here hope lost money gone nothing that matters
What have I done
Stereotype eat a lot all your fault body messed up I'm fat I must only eat junk food
eat because of taste hate myself after eating filling my stomach with junk I don't like I don't even taste it so why do I do it. Mental issue
Sometimes bingeing eating everything for no reason just get idea to eat that because I like it not because I'm hungry or eat it all not to waste it or get too much because I have no perception of reality with it and think I need more more more
Tomorrow to start again drastic change overly dramatic something has to give

Author's Note

I don't do poetry often so this is kinda just a free form ramble of sorts but I think it gets the point across. It's more or less suppose to be the running thoughts of someone with body issues so I decided to not throw too much grammar into it and just make it look more or less exactly how someone would think.