There isn't enough gauze in the world to stop this broken heart from bleeding out.

Monday, December 01, 2008

"In the dark with the music on,
Wishing I was somewhere else.
Taking all your anger out on me...
[somebody help]
I would rather rot alone
Than spend a minute with you...
I'm gone, I'm gone...

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault"

open wounds - skillet

I don't know what to say.
I hate who i love,
love who i hate.
hate who i am,
love who I want to be,
can't be,
need to be.

don't do this,
don't do that.
living in a f*****g
dream and pretending
everything is okay.

I'm not okay,
i f*****g swear,
said mcr.

the amount of pills im taking
counteracts the booze im drinking.
they said that too.

who am i?

where am i going?

i'm lost now.

i'm dying now.

back to last winter.
and all the ones before.
and the ten thousand to come.
i dont wanna do it.
i dont wanna live it.
breathe it.
dont wanna do it.

feeling worthless.
why help me?

I use to beg for help,
cry out for it.

now i want it to go away.
i want to rip myself apart.
I dont want you to try.
I dont want you to

       even


                                think


             about
                         me.

 

 

 

 

 

you can't.
you can't stop me.
you can't stop me from falling

                             APART.

because my self-destruction is
all.
your.

            fault.



NOTE TO SELF:
I F*****G HATE YOU.