The Script For This Movie Is A Blank Page

The Script For This Movie Is A Blank Page

A Chapter by Chaotica
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Sunday, January 04, 2009

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[I'm fiending]
love
and
drugs.

 

                                                   it's all i live for now.


[you & me both, i know]

it's desperate like a teenage tragedy;
it'd be beautiful if it weren't so pathetic.     

                                                                              just a story.

(Think about it)
If you weren't you, would you read your own story?
You know its the s**t we love to read:
sex,
         drugs,
                    depression,
                                        alcohol,
                                                      suicide.

teens f*****g it up big time.
you know why?

Because we're there. We can see ourselves in their position.


(Want to know how creepy I am?)

(You really want to know?)

               I pretend my life is a movie.

                                  It eases the pain.

                It's.... one of those....

One of those druggie,
fucked up

movies that
mess with your mind,

where the camera never really focuses,

spinning around
,
up
and down,

like its made by a hand held, or even right out of someones eyes.

theres parties going on, and we're losing consciousness..............

we're alone in our rooms and the   w    a    l    l   s   a  r  e c l o s ingin.

we're dirty, unwashed, broke, desperate.


it makes everything seem unreal.
it makes me forget that it's real,
that it's not really a movie but

.m.y.r.e.a.l.f.u.c.k.i.n.g.l.i.f.e.

i pretend that...

this is all scripted,
              
and I'm just a damn good actress.

 



© 2009 Chaotica


Author's Note

Chaotica
yes yes yes, this is how I think, please don't ask me that... i get it a lot.

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That was actually really interesting... i also liked how you appealed to the visual sense by materializing some of the ideas you were portraying through the type of font. I just love how it provides us with a look into your own mind, and your ways of defending yourself against the hardships of life. I like it :)

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i don't care for grammar. i like to swear. i jump around. my thoughts don't like to stay on the same track. I'm brutally depressing, ridiculously repetitive, surprisingly pretty good with words... more..

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