Now Without You

It's all about HER. I wish I'd never met her.

Grab you, squeeze you,
shake you; stop your
breathing all together.
Sometimes I want to
end you because before
you life was better.

I use to see a light
at the end of all
my struggles,
until you came
along and birthed a
whole new list of troubles.

You couldn't have what
you wanted and all you
wanted, I possessed.
So you turned yourself
into me and quickly
threw out all the rest.

But you'll never be
who you want to see
when you look into the mirror,
so you pried your
way into my life and
tried to always keep me near.

And to think someone
like you could almost
make me break and cry;
like when you said you
had no heart and I
just gladly gave you mine.

Like when you had
me backed into a
dead end corner,
a blade to your
wrist and a vein
you said you'd sever.

What am I supposed
to do when you put me
in those places?
I gave you all i could,
you tore my heart up;
more than scratches.

I tried to be your
everything without knowing
you'd take it all,
but now I'm gone and
all I want is to be
the reason that you fall.

I know you'll cry,
I know you'll beg,
I know you'll threaten me.
But I won't hear you,
I won't listen, because
without you, I am free.