Made to be Broken Anyways

Throw me away Please

Rose didn't say anything to me again which is very awkward. Cecil was just as childish as ever as she was playing with blocks or Jenga with Sarah.

"Rose, what's the point in talking if I'm the only one talking?" Rose didn't dare look at me and examined the profiles. I, who had nothing else to do went outside for once and that was when it started. Rose followed me everywhere but she did not to talk to me. It was like I was being pursued by a killer or something. Simply walking with Rose on my tail was not the best thing I could hope for in this thing we have here. I couldn't do anything that could ease the awkwardness so I had to be straightforward about it. Reaching to my real home where I can never be disturbed was hard on me. Once I entered the door, I closed it quickly leaving Rose outside. The silence flooded the room but her presence was still a hands reach away from the door.

"Why is this so hard on me, Rose? I'm broken enough so don't think that I can't do anything else. All my years of staying silent can be undone. The best fit for me to do right now is erase my memories so I wouldn't be suspected in the game. Would you mind erasing them for me, Rose." I opened the door she was still there just crying but nothing more came out just a single nod. So I had to give her a proper answer this time. "Rose, if worse comes to worse kill me before anything really happens." Walking towards the drawer and opening it sends all kinds of chills down my body. I looked at all the color coated needles and to the clear on that says danger. Carefully picking it up and the yellow one. Placing it in Rose's hands didn't make it any better. Avoiding her touch was what she did to me. It was as if she found a new toy already in a day at least it was best for those who got involved be used in a certain way. Rose stared at her hand for a second with the needles and then her phone became her directed attention. She looked at her phone and then she started blushing like a tomato. I couldn't do anything but watch her fall in love all over again. There was no choice but it finish the task. "Rose, do it now. You just have to put it in my arm and I'll do the rest. One person down is all you wanted. When you leave, I'll have people send me to the location. This way you and I don't have to suffer." Crying while I say these words that I wouldn't have to say anything. Lifting my arm and rolling my sleeves up all ready to not suffer anymore. That was when I noticed her eyes burning and lifeless. I have to wipe my tears away and stay strong. I hug her and say. "It's alright, Rose, this is the only way that I can be free once again and we wouldn't have anything to hold us back." Rose pushed me away and I knew it was a rejection. A rejection of what I can no longer be the person who can cherish her. I looked up at Rose as she dropped the needles. 

"So there is no need for a leftover like me huh. You can go Rose. I know you and you're already tired of me. Go to your new fate I can at least do it alone but I really wanted you to do it because you know when a person starts things they usually ends it. Though I guess it already has ended so get out Rose there isn't a reason for you to stay."

Picking up the needles didn't feel real but it's something I must do. I let it glide to my major vein in my arm and stabbed it in. When I was ready to put the serum in I was slapped in the face. Rose was crying even more now and she took the needle away well she took it out of my arm. "Hey, Rose, you do know I have more no never mind please leave." She stayed in place while I walked away from her. "Who said that I have a new toy? I want you and only you wolf. Don't do this, be free you say you are going to break my promise."

"Roselia, promises are meant to be broken you know. Also you've broken yours long long ago." Walking away from her and down the hall I went to my living room to sit down. Sitting down on the chair sends all kinds of pains from my memories filled with blood. Roselia was in front of me panicking about my survival it seems some of the serum went into my blood but it has the opposite effect. Placing every torturous memories that have been bottled up in my head. The smallest details of what is to come next of my parents, then my focus was on the burning building no even before it started to burn to ashes.

"I killed them didn't I? I killed everyone on that field trip, Roselia answer me." Roselia's phone started ringing and of course she answered delighted. I walked to another room to not hear anything anymore. That was when I started reliving my childhood no my haunted forgotten memories. The very thing that has started my disorder for more detailed murders.

Author's Note

Please regard my grammar and hope you like it