This time was too perfect

I watched it crawl from the person destined for me

slithering softly as it reached my legs

Up up and away it enters my heart

poisoning it that's how it start

all i wanted to hear was your nags

to you i was only a person free

that was a lie I was bounded to darkness you see

wearing these old clothes people called rags

the darkness keeps growing it's off the charts

slicing me it little parts

repeatedly walking away trying to run from the pegs

but you hold me down as they started to see

what i truly am from this box

you smile and whisper

it's alright nothing to worry about 

how many times have I to count

the things you saw from no to miss her

i'm running between worlds to create a paradox

this endless repeat is the same you sly fox

no matter what I do I run into you what bitter

I have started to become aware of doubt

you walked onto some mount

and left me as food litter

you are no better than an ox

Break me all you want but this isn't the end

You have ridiculous excuses 

can never be properly be someone's side

that's why my love for you has died

and so was your unconscious abuses

you didn't know this but it happened 

Yes you did nothing as I was crushed to be send

somehow i knew that in your eyes i wasn't a ms

so the lies that were spout out cried

with red dried tears rolling off that foul tongue was fried

into the depths only to be heard from Chris

my determination shall never bend

no matter how much you thought that it hurt

to be stupid enough to think

that i fell for your tricks

sorry boy I have no need for this sick

joy of your happiness so I drink 

you are lower then dirt

oh my dear Matthew I hope you wear that flirt

of a scum bag of noting but kink

not the whole world shall gather like picks

whoops that went a record you little frick

I bet you are actually gay and wanted the D**k

And change that damn name to Curt

When you left I felt relieved 

the chained on my heart became better to breath

somehow you became a creep

unless you are one that had no sleep

this fake mask has decided to leave

thank the lords that is what i hope to believe

Author's Note

XP I don't need someone else to control my life but somehow this is what i actually feel sorry if I offended someone. just needed to write this to get it off my chest seriously sorry if I offended people