Windowless Door

This self-imposed darkness
I have put in place
Runs like wildly tumbling water
in my veins
Expressing itself as I release in words
from each pore
All of my self-imposed pain

This proud isolation
that I hold myself captive within
Contains no flowers
to brighten its view
Only my infatuation with this sentence
I have imposed
On myself
and these chains I wear too

In fleeting expressions
of freedom
to be found
I stare longingly
at a windowless door
Then tremble in fear and confusion
at the mere thought
Of even walking across the floor

My idealized image
of how my life should be
Holds me captive
here in my own war
I am the only one who can release me
from this space
Untie myself
walk out my windowless door

Reviews

[realmwriter]

Wow! This is perhaps my favorite of yours Neva. You deal with a topic rarely seen in your writings and you do it with the same ease and beauty as with those of enlightenment. Fear is indeed crippeling and can rendour us both powerless and imobile. Nice job!

[Sleepless]

thsi reminds me of of ..... oh yeah my that telluign me that the only who can hurt you the most and amke you not do the things you want ! is yourself this poem talks about that love the poe m neva !:)

[MOON]

This speaks so universally of fear and frozen in time, so beautifully expressed and yet such an individual wound too. Poignant , lovely write.

[WynterPhoenix]

Wow. This describes how I'm feeling right now with my writer's block.

"Then tremble in fear and confusion
at the mere thought
Of even walking across the floor."

Especially that line. This is very well written. As always. Thank you for sharing, Neva!

[quinfinn]

powerful and revealing . this smacks of the agoraphobic and renders me speechless. i am at a loss to express the words to define what this did to me.let's just say i will look at leaving my personal spaces in a whole different light from now on. excellent write!

[Melobldnfr]

Excellent, excellent imagery I can super relate to. Xo!

[Yari Garcia (Older Prof..]

The last two verses stood out the most for me. Very intriguing poem.

[Birdman313]

wow this is great

[Aidz]

As darkness holds your hand... I appreciate this write as you know I do

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

heaven itself can't hide the feeling of hate and fear from the minds of those willing to feel it, well written, another great piece my love.