Presence of Warmth

I touched the presence of warmth on my pillow
it made me feel sure that I was safe,
went back to sleep smoother than my heartbeat.
Then I awoke to find myself hidden
behind memories of you.

Standing on the corner of never say no,
my feet are firmly planted
in I cannot say I am sorry.  
Will I be the rock laying here asking myself
where I found this bitter pill
under my tongue?

Did I sleep while it rained on everything we ever had
until nothing but sand existed
inside all of these silent moments?
When bluebirds sang
about how the stars laugh
was I here drowning
in my pride?

I touched the presence of warmth on my pillow,
then I reached out to yours
felt the cold.
I lay here and listen to the rain
falling smoother than my heartbeat
I have never felt
so alone.

Author's Note

*Eddie O'Bryan Photography

Reviews

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This poem has a lot to say about self preservation. Something about the two pillows stuck with me. The warmth of the pillow was almost like the connection between self and inner self. It felt so territorial to me for some reason. I couldn't get over it. The heart under the hardened exterior seemed to surface in the end. This is dynamic and has an amazing amount of things going. Its a cornucopia of emotion.

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Only one fix here: "Will I be the rock laying here asking myself"-- it should be "lying here". Other than that i think this is a wonderful poem and i really think it was a good symbolism when you wrote that the blue birds sang and the stars laughed. It is almost like a paranoia thing but at the same time it is weaved in beautifully in your writing. I wouldnt say this is your best but it's still pretty good, and I also like the last statement how you say you have never felt so alone. I like that "So alone" is at the next line because it supports the feeling of being on your own.

[Larry Dyson]

I feel the emotion of regret in this so strong and pride is a real killer...it is best eaten like crow and ...than spewed back out as isolation ...dont you think?'...

[iand63]

wow speechless

[Morning Star]

Your words are expressed with great emotion
Every word in this verse touch this reader ( me ) deeply
Your words capture beautiful imagery

[Nishant Gupta]

nice one , read mine too " QUEST OF LIFE".

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Oh My this one really touched me so;
I really loved this piece, it has warmth to it.
So beautiful Neva!

[Muse]

Your status..............................
Do you need your penn back? ;)
The black and white photo alone brings a cold chilling environment. Then to add the cold rain to the pain of someone missing her lover. Wow, very well done Neva! xx

[Lily Mae]

Well this speaks volumes to me today;) with anger in my heart and tears in my eyes...xx

[November Gold]

WOW. I felt this one, Neva. I've been there, perhaps more than once.