Presence of Warmth

I touched the presence of warmth on my pillow
it made me feel sure that I was safe,
went back to sleep smoother than my heartbeat.
Then I awoke to find myself hidden
behind memories of you.

Standing on the corner of never say no,
my feet are firmly planted
in I cannot say I am sorry.  
Will I be the rock laying here asking myself
where I found this bitter pill
under my tongue?

Did I sleep while it rained on everything we ever had
until nothing but sand existed
inside all of these silent moments?
When bluebirds sang
about how the stars laugh
was I here drowning
in my pride?

I touched the presence of warmth on my pillow,
then I reached out to yours
felt the cold.
I lay here and listen to the rain
falling smoother than my heartbeat
I have never felt
so alone.

Author's Note

*Eddie O'Bryan Photography

Reviews

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This poem has a lot to say about self preservation. Something about the two pillows stuck with me. The warmth of the pillow was almost like the connection between self and inner self. It felt so territorial to me for some reason. I couldn't get over it. The heart under the hardened exterior seemed to surface in the end. This is dynamic and has an amazing amount of things going. Its a cornucopia of emotion.

[Thea]

"I touched the presence of warmth on my pillow
it made me feel sure that I was safe"
What a lovely introduction, I do that sometimes, haha! :)))
This is an exceptional writing, Neva...Your words are so beautifully expressed... :)))

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Your words are so beautiful despite all the longing and heartache expressed...

Did I sleep while it rained on everything we ever had
until nothing but sand existed
inside all of these silent moments?

absolutely love this part but wonderful poem all the way around.

[Dark Beauty]

Great write with this piece,good word choice to convey the message and emotions.I like it alot it touched me! Nice job

[Omar Fendri]

"Standing on the corner of never say no,
my feet are firmly planted
in I cannot say I am sorry. " ..... you really touched me ever so deep.
disconsolate, too sad that I felt every word as I was holding my pillow. You always know how to collect words and bind them together. Well-expressed Poem. Respect.

[Hayley]

These dreary, rainy days make me appreciate this poem even more... The "smoother than my heartbeat" line is perfect. It's the perfect backdrop to the loneliness felt and the speaker's contemplation. You did a really nice job creating the mood to this piece. I think the word for it would be wistful. :)

[Ladysue]

this is absolutely beautiful yet sad and incredibly moving...

[Sleepless]

know the ffeling too welll !:) love the poem its tragically beautiful :)

[Cascara (aka Sprint Goe..]

Heartfelt and beautiful...

[Teri B]

Awwww! So poignant! We are too often the mistresses of our own misery!