No Going Back

I have seen the face of there is no going back
Wiped away the tears of hate
Held the hand of addiction's bitter hatred
Ripped the mask from a lie's
Own face

I have reached way up to touch the bottom
Said goodbye, then returned
To feel my heart break one more time
When the fingers of my regret
Got burned

I have walked in the darkness of I can't feel
Because I choose not to
Fell face down and bumped my head
On every feeling I numbed
From truth

But I saw the face of I can still go on
Looked into my own eyes
Crawled out of darkness in such pain
Even those empty spaces
Made me cry

I am no different than you or you from me
We both carry our own pain
I only know that now I choose to feel
Enjoy my life with no regrets
In light remain

Author's Note

This one is about as raw as I can get for now.............

Reviews

[FJ Davis]

A triumphal journey, vividly described. Pain transformed into joy; depression trounced.
Darkness is for concealment--very infrequently, for recovery. But in the end, dear lady--no matter how excruciating the journey, how seemingly comforting, the dark--we, if we truly want to live, have nowhere else to go but the light. It is that universal beacon declaring "home."
As for your terrible ordeal, Neva, I'm so glad you made it back.
Your lovely, soaring poetry is a gift hard-earned--and ultimately, a precious gift to the world.
Thank you, for persevering.

[Robin]

this speaks of the release of the past , where one can finally begin to recognize their self . and in that , begin to live ...

[Lilly Negoi]

raising after we fell...again and again - that's what proves our will to live...

[Lily Mae]

I can feel the pain and the regret and yet you bring it home to me in the end with "in light remain". Your strength in character and your beautiful belief system in life still shine through, your times of sadness and regret.. I love it Neva.. xx

[A.G Franke]

deep. showing deep strength

[LA Lorena]

I'm sure many will be able to relate to the feelings expressed in this, I know I can. It's amazing how some can continue to claw and bounce back to live again, while others linger in the darkness always...the human mind and spirit is a truly amazing thing. Nice write!

[Adelia Alighieri]

What a brilliant concept. This is one thoughtful write.
Loving the picture.

[unknown]

Interesting because i just wrote something similar to this called Not Looking Back too lol. Great minds think alike. Wonderful poem Neva!

[Ladysue]

oh yes...in light remain...very empowering and inspiration...this was a wonderful story...awesome...

[The old me]

very good and raw. the combo of rawness and soul baring style of writing makes this poem very good. one of your best works I have read.

[Judy Ponceby]

It is soul baring, Neva. Your journey shared from deepest dark and pain to light and joy. Phenomenal.