Dressed in Sadness

 

My secret thoughts reside

in the backyard of my existence

where darkness cries out in shivers

clear to my bones.

I wake up to find them

packed neatly on shelves in my mind

and wish I could just crawl away,

be left alone.

They come from my emotions,

dressed in sadness

with no intention of ever comforting

what they transform.

There are days

when they make a decision

to rearrange the places I stand

until I am left without hope,

forlorn.

My secret thoughts are the lyrics of my being

which bid my heart

to walk on a white canvas

of the purest snow.

Oh the damage

that could be done

if I spoke them aloud,

my true feelings revealed

with these eyes full of woe.

I cannot bend or I'll break

so I hide on these shelves

in my mind,

packed neatly away

from all that challenges

my tree of life,

such as falling leaves.

My secret thoughts control

how my tongue refrains

from speech,

So my true feelings,

you will.....

never see.

Author's Note

Photography by Kirsty Mitchell Photography

Reviews

[Veronica Chandler]

"...so I hide on these shelves
in my mind,
packed neatly away
from all that challenges
my tree of life,..."
This piece speaks to me and I feel 10,000 emotions all at the same time. Some parts lift me and other parts weigh heavy in my spirit. As usual, when I read your work I find comfort in the softness, and contrasts.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Veronica :)

[Veronica Chandler]

My pleasure...

[disheveledApathy]

This sort of reminds me of dreaming while you're asleep: all the thoughts in the back of your mind that you didn't have time to think during the day come loose, and you dream until the morning, when you wake up and the thoughts are back on a shelf in the back of your mind, waiting until the next time you fall asleep.
Lovely, descriptive write. Thanks for sharing this, it really made me think. ;D
-Mer

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Mercanta :)

[Zachary_James]

Every time i get a request to read your work, i smile because Neva you are so talented at writing poetry. You write words so beautifully, i often have no words. Litterally i am left speachless, I mean since i've joined this community i've never read anything like your work. Because honestly there's a richness in your writimg, that i believe is so unique and amazing. I love all of your writing, never give writing up, my friend you are so talented. Having the ability to write something, that is a masterpiece. I just can't wanted to let you know that, anyway.
This piece is fantastic as always.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Zach, thank you so very much :)

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Holding in those hurtful emotions can lead to an volcanic outburst that hurts innocent bystanders...then again it is always not that easy to say let them out, afraid you may lose control.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you R and R C

[Larry Dyson]

I cannot bend or I'll break

so I hide on these shelves

in my mind,

packed neatly away

from all that challenges

my tree of life,

such as falling leaves.
liking these words..

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Laury

[Leigh]

Thats a great line and a bit less abstract, which helps me as I am quite simple and need things explaining to me all the time. The mind is fathomless and perhaps the thing we understand the least. Elegantly done Neva..

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Leigh, I write deep but if one carries on a conversation with me they will find out I am very down to earth. So glad this one was better for you. :)

[Leigh]

I love your abstract style so please dont change. Also great photo

[Jack...]

Very beautiful and sad at the same time. To lock ones feeling, thoughts and desires away because of some unfounded belief that they will not be accepted is very sad. Very nicely done Neva, you have given us a piece of magic here.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you so much my friend :) X

[CS]

The mind is a labyrinth. I have had those days too. A lot of those days. True feelings so often get packed away to avoid hurting others with them.

I can really connect with this, Neva. The emotions are palpable. Very nice work, my friend.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Courtney :)

[Zizzy Douglas]

i didn't knw ontil now,u're a wondrful poet!

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Sir Tyc :)

[Zizzy Douglas]

u welcum...what's ur genre of specialization?

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

I would have to say Romance but basically I write about feelings.

[Zizzy Douglas]

wow...u knw i honestly hope we can do some work together.....

[John Alexander McFadyen]

We all harbour thoughts andperhaps more-so fears we dare not express in our waking moments on the Earth. Well portrayed Neva.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you John :)

[Michael G.]

On the technical side of this poem, I found it to be excellent. The flow and the rhythm it has is easy for the reader to relate. The content is consistent throughout. (It has good bones, in my opinion.)
You have written something most all can relate. It is thoughtful and mindful of how we keep our emotions under watchful eyes. And you also show us how they can take control of us. An interesting write.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Michael :)