Numbed by "I Don't Care"

My senses wonder how to find peace
among company not familiar
with the lightest touch.  
Even though I have written down
everything of which I dream.  
My words are not heralded
by the new age the same
because a pebble
means more to them
than a beautiful sunset's beams.

The youngest
seem to rise inside the walls
with no names,
disguised as sparkling diamonds
known as hope.  
I must beware of their winds
as they can overwhelm
the very air I cradle and for which I fight.  
Or, I may find my Heaven
has become absent
and that I have given up everything
I know to be right.

I could look straight through the glass
and hear the strangest voices ever
from my reality.  
And, I would want to know
what lies at the bottom,  
posing as flowers for my hair.
Still, I find there are wrinkles in my climate
painted on the panes of life,
numbed by “I don't care”.

If I tried to escape or perhaps fight
for what I believe,
would I be considered shallow?  
Could I still feel   the appeal of peace
or would I want to cover my heart in sleep?  
So, I watch the schemes
of those not familiar with the lightest touch
then watch them drink the wine
of what they reap.

Reviews

[rivers]

You may be expressing the changes you see and feel in life but I must first state that your evocative writing is constant as the dawn each day. I have written on these WC pages many times that you are one of the finest writers here. Neva, I think I understand everything you are expressing here. While in the transition of the past year, I have said I don’t care countless times and finally just felt like I may be in danger of giving up. After unpublishing over a hundred pieces and then writing another hundred poems that were never published here I said to myself again… "I don't care" “Understand this moment has come to just write what you feel… don’t ever let anyone say what you feel is wrong”…

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Harlon :)

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

A very emotive piece....reflective that captures so much...
makes me ponder over each line....
great work :)

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Yas :)

[Lily Mae]

This just has so many different emotions flying through me right now. I see this void in so many and I guess even in myself with the way life is for us now. That void and that "I don't care".. feels more like a cry out then a hand in the face. So painful. Your words bring all of it to the light of day for us.. xoxo

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Lily Mae :)

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

Knowing what the right decision is can be tricky, when to turn the other check and when to fight for what is right. Another mind stimulating poem.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you D :)

[Dr. Wood ?]

you never disappoint...this is truly wonderful in its construction...Makes me realise why I joined this site in the first place..Thanks

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Dr. Wood :)

[victoria]

''Still, I find there are wrinkles in my climate
painted on the panes of life,
numbed by “I don't care”.'' Oh my Neva, for me these words feel of dilema, the kind that sits awkward...the kind I usually have to find courage for........beautiful emotive poetry that delves deeper than we care to go.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Victoria :)

[Danielle]

What a touching, heartfelt exquisite poem! I adore what you have written here, it speaks to my heart and soul.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Shia

[Becky C Strukamp]

I felt a familiar set of emotions as I read this. You composed this beautifully.

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you inyrDreams :)

[kelvin]

good writing here there's fire in these words sounds like someone looking to belong or be somewhere i like drink the wine of what they reap.as always keep writing fellow writer

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you Kelvin

[kelvin]

you're very welcome

[Ahmad Cox]

Wonderful and beautifully deep poem. You have magically spoken the words in my heart. Thanks for sharing

[Neva Flores Smith - Changefulstorm]

Thank you, so good to see you here Ahmad :)