Emptyness

Tolls that we often deal with...

Emptyness...

Promiscuous she thought she was,

After what she had been through!  

Faith she had lost in herself and life too. 
A hug was all that she desperately needed, to get herself through!         

But alas no one was by to help her to!

Where were they all when she needed them the most?

Where were they when she wanted to vent n cry?

Promises tearing, memories crumbling, how was she to get out of her own mess this time?

Fear, fumbling, terrified, discombobulated, she felt those passing by at once!

Her lackadaisical attitude had got her to where she was! 

Yet she knew not why it happened or how!

No friend, no family, no one to stand by!

And the horror of loosing that one light that had kept her alive all this while!

What was she to do now? Where was she to go? 

Who was she to look for in this dark forlorn world?

Work, exams, stress creeping on her like a cactus waiting to create a cut.....
A hug to comfort, a shoulder to cry, sure wasn't too much for her to ask!

Her fear of being judged, found no end to be sought! 

How could she blame her actions, or bat a finger at the others, when she knew what she was getting into, yet knew not why? 

Her morals and values had wandered into a wild darkness she could not recognize! 

Her light had faded, hope was lost, faith standing alone contemplating to be resorted!

Her reputation was in shambles, peace was at stake, would she survive it out there and make it somehow?
True friends were missing, memories were haunting, stooped in a blunt affect, her soul was breaking, no one realised what she was going through, for she had no one to vent to, and no one would listen to, those cries of her anguish, her pain and suffering! 

Before she could justify she had lost time too, she had gone, and her emotions had perished!

Alone, weak, aloof and empty, the chasm grew wider and emptyness filled!

Regret died left her cold, a stature her worse enemy could not wish for...... 

She was lost, wandering, thoughts loitering and no parameter could measure, the depth of her grief, from which had lost connect to.   

Self actualization was far from her reach, all the mountains she ever climbed were a journey of her life gone in vain. 

Lost in the temptations, lost in her fears, flew her morality.

Stooped in dejection, with an empty stature, to used to the pampering, with nowhere to go and nothing to look back on, she left the world and all her misery!

Reviews

[Echoes of Eros]

This struck me so deep in the sorrow and pain of her; the emptiness that devoured her completely. I lived in these shadows for so long, and know there are countless others there now, so your words gripped tight to my heart and soul. Powerfully moving, Chandni... xo

[Chandini Hemdev]

Thank you so much :) Really appreciate it :)

[Echoes of Eros]

So glad to have you writing here. :)

[Chandini Hemdev]

Thank you so very much, will definitely keep writing :)

[Lola_Bee]

wow so much emotion at once, very sad. great expression in your writing. keep writing