Retrospective

This was something I experienced, something that hid me hard and fast in my life, yet no regrets :)

Retrospective

Discombobulated is the feeling, just the exact word. 

It's arduous, it's long and just what conveys the message best.
Life is an adventure or a ride, 

you either are the caption that guides or a passenger that has no say in what's right.
You entered a new phase, it was gorgeous and beautiful,
just as you thought you got the hang of it, you were actually loosing it.
It wasn't your fault, for it was being snatched away from you, 

the happy times moving a step away from you.

All those efforts to get along, 
All that torture you withstood all along,
To see someone smile, 
To keep someone happy,
All in vain for you are left pondering on that picturesque you made your life about.
People accepted you, 
and then aborted you,
as if an untouchable,
they even harmed you.
Physical wounds may not be visible
the mental one's are way too gruesome,
to add to the misery the psychological impact is the worse to prove them true.
Fakely alleged, wrongly spoken off, as though you were someone the hated all along.
The simplicity of the tact in which you got moulded, 
grew into the astounding reality of their character. 
It stung you so hard, that years have past n you still cannot accept that fasard.
Letting go you thought was easy, dwelled into more of those trust and love affairs.
Each time you tried something new,
it fell back right in the face hurting no one but you.
You think you have that someone now for sure,
are you definite that they will now stick by,
and now sting you n walked past like the others of that fake smile.
Hence 
confused your state, 
meandering your mind,
to those memoranda that once made you smile,
to have no facts but the idea of you crying. 
Be mature, act your age,let go and hope for the best,
what's in store will come to you,
stop fetching for it, for you anyway deserve what's best for you!

Author's Note

A lot of poetic license has been used, apologies for the difficulty is any.

Reviews

[Chandini Hemdev]

Thank you so much, really appreciate it :)

[wordman]

a great write about life and love and the roller coaster effect it brings