Something Special

The Someone

It was a busy day when we cross way.

I first met you playing and singing with your guitar

and you looked at me as if smiling or so I thought.

 

I was tired to even listen to the song your singing

However I felt that somehow we were connected 

Connected in ways I can't even point into

It may sound cheesy however it is all but true

 

 

You've been special from that day forward too

I may not know why but my thoughts were only you

People may find it weird however I may never knew

the reasons that draws me to you

 

Works and friends may distract me everyday

But then at the end of the day, it's just you

I may have been home sicked or so I thought

Can't even remember since my brain was a bit crazy.

 

Just like yesterday a time not so far away

I look at you and I listened to myself say

"Well, things are always not the same anyway"

You were special then and will always be the same.

 

However, time may really have changed everything

from that fateful day, to this very moment we are into.

Then all of the sudden, memories overflow.

Just like the waterfall that gushes over a like a show.

 

Back then, I even think twice before saying my thoughts.

I remember the times wherein I just agree even if it badly hurts.

Those almost frequent arguments we have exchanged,

they seemed to never end which were hard for us to mend.

 

At times when my cries filled my room at night,

my tears drenched the pillows and drained me outright.

The thoughts that says I must stay on this and fight,

then came the time when I can only do anything but say

"Goodbye" and then you started asking "Why?"

 

You have endless reasons for everything I say.

Your pride piled up making it hard for you to say sorry.

Didn't you know that I can forgive you before you say so?

If only you have tried to, I may still be with you.

Here on this altar saying our "I do".

 

Hours, days, months had passed by without you.

I say we've both moved on the past and go

Now we’re here watching this lovely sunset outside the church.

You're face beaming just like when we first met.

 

"How time passed, you know?" I said.

Yes, it flies fast since the last time,

the sad last time when you and I said our goodbyes.

"Yes it was. But you know, I'm happy to see you." (He)

Me too.

 

"How's life?" My awkward but curious question

"Honey, I'm getting married. I want you to be there

At the time that I'll commit myself on that day"

His endearment feels very light to me.

But what, marriage?! I felt my heart turned gray

 

Holding back the tears I felt coming as I remember 

I never even did cry at that time we said our goodbyes.

And now, I'll be standing next to this man

when his getting married to another woman.

 

I doubt even if he can see my heart cries

but I saw tears falling from his eyes.

As suddenly he said it would have been you 

but now I know, we connected because we needed each other to grow.

 

It will never be us since that’s just how life goes.

I failed you & hurt you after I stole your heart.

You went away and been silent for a year or so,

while I've been asking around but nobody seems to know.

 

Until it came to me that the love we had 

and we almost kept was never ours to begin with.

We were old but we were young, mature but immature.

And now were here exchanging our supposedly vow

but this time, it's for us to take on our final bow.

 

He waited patiently for what I was about to say.

The sun had set as words came out of my mouth

Then I heard myself saying "can I not go?"

He then softly answered me "I know".

 

I loved him, love him and will love him

In my heart I'll be keeping my special gem.

 

Selfish it may seem to see him wave me goodbye

See his smiles now only for his beautiful wife

Hear him say the vow I longed to hear

These will just be too much for my heart to bear.

 

But in some way through my journey

I can proudly say I've learned to let go

and was brave to accept life's hard blows.

 

Author's Note

Constructive criticisms is highly appreciated since I'm new on this. Thank you!!!