Letters to You 1

Dear You,

I watched a movie today that told me that in order to know if love is real you have to sacrifice. And if the other person doesn't realise that your sacrifice is worth every thing there's no use. You have to understand how much I sacrificed for you. I could have chosen to love others but my heart still chose you, I could have had a better life when I was overseas. Heck I'd be minting but money meant nothing to me when you were in the equation. All my thoughts were of you. I could have not given a damn and gotten over you but for some reason that wasn't a part of God's cruel plan, I just couldn't seem to let your imprint leave my heart. Don't get me wrong I've moved on before, so I'm not sure why I lingered here for so long. Moreover, none of my acquaintances can fathom why you meant so much to me. You seemed so ordinary to them but to me ...you were so special. Even if you lost everything and all you had were just clothes on your back, I'd still care for you.

You've broken me in ways that no man ever has but I still have nothing but respect and love for you. You've hurt me with harsh words on many occasions yet I held on... not that I lacked self respect but because somewhere deep inside I loved you more and forgave you despite you never saying you were sorry. As time passed, I understood that you began to despise me. It turned out that everything involving me made you feel disgusted. 6 and a half years of love reciprocated with bitter words and disgust... So, it turned out that just about any woman was better than me. Turned out everyone else was right and it was easier for you to believe that I was wrong.

My life will go on but you will always be in my heart. We met for a reason. We met and I learned. Learnt that no matter how much you love and truly care for someone, they prefer the girl who acts chaste and vestal. And the best way to a man's heart and life is by manipulating his mother.

Love,
Me