Apologetic but unheard...

Trying to get through to you
Is futile and fruitless.

I never mean to be so blunt,
But I'm differently wired...
So I come across as ridiculous,
I never appear to be kind.

Your eyes continue to deceive you,
You keep looking

                              ...yet you are blind
To manipulation and deceit
Crafted by unsuspecting sources.

I'm by no means a saint,
But to you I haven't lied.
On my pillow you will find the stains
From the many nights I've cried.
The transient memories cling so strong,

It hurts cause...
I haven't spoken to you in so long.

It's tearing me inside
But in a facade of happiness I hide.

I still remember your 'Sunny' smile
And the glint in your brown eyes.
Your one-off jokes still linger on...
And even now, they make me laugh.

Sigh....
It's only me who cares.

You despise me...
You don't really care.

Your harsh words have cut
                                                me
                                                      deep.
What I've sown by trusting I've had to reap.

Don't be so cruel dear stranger
With me there really is no danger.
Just find it in your heart
For us to still be friends.

You are the only one I heart-wrenchingly miss,
So please don't hurt me any more than this.