Drowning

I can't breath

The air escaping me

Life is so fleeting

Why is it so cruel?

I asked for none of this

I just wanted to live

But now I long for death

To liberate me from this hell

Only to go to the next one

For I will never escape

I shall never be free

Of those judgemental gaze's.

These friends are 

Nothing more than faceless liers

Who are cowards in disguise

Out of fear of the other's

And the truth to spread

Out wide across the sky.

Who am I anymore?

I cannot see myself in the mirror

My figure being absent

Never to see the light of day

For I am filled with 

Nothing but darkness

That just clouds my

Mind in madness.

i am insane

I must accept that

As I wish for death

To liberate me from hell

Only to land in the next one

Where eternal hellfire

Shall rot my sinful being to dust

As I scream out in agony

That only I have brought onto myself

For I am a wretch

That lives off the streets

A simple begger

Wishing for greatness

Only to be fooled

By the stars the dazzle in my eyes.

And I sufficate

From my own delusions

And the lies of the false ones.

Can it just end already?

Can I just rest in peace?

Or am I just meant to be the puppet

The abuse toy that sits in the 

Corner of the room

Watching silently as the world moves

All around him.

Never to argue

Never to fuss

For how can he argue

Or defend himself

Against those who actually hold power

Over his meaningless life

That is better off in the gutter.

What good is he?

What good am I?

For I just sit in this darkness

Wallowing in only self-pity

Over how pathetic I am

Of how useless I am

And of how much of

A little b***h I am to this world.

Now just let me die

So that I can go

And pay for my sins

And let not one more man 

Give me any more trouble

So that i can get to hell

For hell is nothing compared

To living on this world.