The Shadow

2014

You stood by the river to speak
And a shadow came to you
It stole your voice
So you could be at peace

Peace was a sin
Foretold to be a weakness
Silence, your only enemy
Fear, lay in silence

Shadow is your only friend
And you no longer have to hold
The feelings that you were so detained to
Sins, that you fully indulged in

What are sins
What are strengths
What is it you are looking for
Is it to live?

People look at you differently
It never changes
Life isn't worth living
But you do it anyway

Author's Note

This was a vent piece back in 2014, a time when I struggled with the thought of suicide something that is sadly common these days. But the poem is still something I'd like to share.

Reviews

[Inject Positivity]

I can relate to it totally my frnd... I have faced a time in my life (from 2014 to the midst of 2015) when I went through suicidal thoughts... Your poem expresses heartbreak and pain, and sadly this is the same situation that so many people are going through all over the world, from the school students to the retired people... Excellently penned my frnd... I hope you find peace and strength... God bless you...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[Tristesse]

Centipedle,

Captivating just at the beginning, an excellent play of words. I enjoyed it. You can feel the broken emotion leak from the words, and the pain that stings these pages. Thanks for sharing.

Best regards,
Tristesse

[I Am Svetlana]

Silence is truly a deadly killer, the same with depression. I know it's a lifelong struggle, day in & day out. I have days like these too...feeling the things you've mentioned in this piece. I always hate those thoughts, but I always write and try my hardest to find a way out. A way to get every bit of emotion out that's buried inside. I struggle with depression & anxiety and having both is like a personal Hell. Just know that there IS a way out, it just takes time. Some days will be harder than others, but just take everything at a slow pace and start each day over new and see how things go. Don't be afraid to feel sad or down, it doesn't mean you are a weak individual. We are all human & it's normal to feel these roller coaster emotions. Stay strong & my inbox is always open if you want a friend to relate to. Keep writing, it'll be your best friend.

[coltmeyer]

" Peace was a sin foretold to be a weakness " Lot of emotion in this piece, very well done and thank you for sharing it!

[AliciaB]

This is a moving poem, and it is heartbreaking to hear the story behind it. Every stanza is extremely powerful, but the ones that touch me most are the first one, with the image of the shadow stealing your voice; the fourth one, with its deep, painful questions; and the final one, which speaks to the intensity of the suffering you endured during this time. I am very glad that you got past this time, because the world would truly be less bright of a place without you and your wonderful, enjoyable writing. Thank you for having the courage to share this.

[Einstein Noodle]

thank you for sharing this part of your life ...you are so right about too many thoughts and acts of suicide among the youth ... your title drew me to read this one ... being conflicted is no doubt a part of getting to the point of contemplating suicide and i feel it throughout your poem ... the syntax is off a bit in this line "The feelings that you were so detained to" ...perhaps instead of detained to ..chained to .. ;) the drudgery of a life battling depression rolls over me in your closing .. i am so happy in your note this experience in in your past ..good job says i!
E.