What I Regret The Most.

Today someone asked me what do I regret the most.

Today someone asked me what I regret the most. She looked surprised when I told her that “I regret almost everything I’ve ever done”. She thought for a moment then said “Well what do you regret the MOST”. I told her that I regret everything. She said okay and walked away. Well I guess I can’t just say that and not tell about it. So here goes nothing. I regret not saying yes to go on a mission trip for this summer. I regret not saying yes to if I want to go to youth group or not. I regret not talking when I really, really need to say something. I will regret not asking someone to stay. I regret not going to previous winter jams. I regret being too stubborn to do stuff with people. I regret being annoying. I regret all the terrible things I’ve done. I regret not joining in. I regret not telling people how I felt. I regret being a total jerk to loved ones. I regret keeping people up all night by messaging them. I regret messaging them because of my need to know that someone is there. I regret telling people lies. I regret telling people the truth. I regret not being brave enough to take the chances in life. I regret not being there for people. I regret not keeping promises. I regret telling people secrets. I regret being socially awkward. I regret hurting people. I regret not letting people know the real me. I regret not speaking up. I regret not saying. I regret not being able to help people. I regret letting people take advantage of me. I regret taking advantage of others. I regret not asking people. I regret not letting other people choose. I regret telling some people how I feel. I regret being right. I regret being wrong. I regret arguing with people. I regret breaking things. I regret bothering people. I regret being to needy. I regret going talking to people when I know they don’t care. I regret falling in. I regret saying no. I regret acting like I matter. I regret budding in. I regret talking when no one wants me to. I regret acting like a fool. I regret trying to fit in. I regret not caring. I regret repeating myself. I regret not thinking twice. I regret trying to make everyone happy. I regret not trying to do things out of my comfort zone. I regret being that one kid everyone’s waiting on so they can go on. I regret not singing in public when I really want to. I regret not being one of those people who aren’t afraid to be themselves. I regret not acting in the last couple chaos shows. I regret not letting her know who I really am. I regret not doing the things that will only come once in our lifetime. I regret not savoring the moments. I regret not sneaking out at night. I regret not being rebellious. I regret not telling people the truth about all my capabilities. I regret posting my thoughts online. I regret regretting everything.