Misfortune of War

This extract is about a soldier at war, slightly loosing his mind, as you read through his chain of thoughts as he fights for England. (This includes a swear word btw and also may include a TW)

The sand quickly making it’s way into my torn up shoes, the soft, sharp feeling of the microscopic rocks seeping into the moist gaps between my feet, I think of the beach with my family 3 summers ago and how relaxing it was, but this is war, there is no relaxing on the battle field, I mean who knows? Bombs could fall like rain, we could be pursued by heavy firearms, days go by slower and slower until it feels like it’s been months just for one day to end. I want to sleep, I don’t want to fight, I want to see my wife and 3 kids again, I’m scared and alone, I’ve watched hundreds dying, I’ve seen friends getting shot down and told there’s no time to mourn for them. When will this end? Why did it start? Will I make it out alive? Do I want to make it out alive? To many questions so little time to answer, the feeling of death always lies close by, I wish it didn’t I wish I could promise myself and my family that I would make it out alive and this could all be forgotten, and as much as I want to see the smiling faces of their dad making it back, do I really want to make it back to just my kids? To just 2 or 1 of my children? Do I want to come back homeless after everything I’ve been through for this country? ‘For this country’ they say they say ‘You soldiers are fighting for this countries freedom” are we though? Are we? Many of us (if we had the option) wouldn’t turn up to war no matter what it was for, no, I’m not doing this for the sake of England I’m doing this for the remaining people I have left in my life, I’m doing this so my family and friends don’t have to suffer. The traumatic experience isn’t something you would willingly sign up to, many people do, and to be honest I owe my battle to them. I would’ve never even dreamed about it. There are many under 18’s here I don’t understand why they would do this to themselves, surely they must regret, they should’ve just enjoyed their lives as much as they could instead of slaughtering for the sake of good, “For the sake of good”, THIS ISN’T GOOD NO MATTER WHAT IT’S FOR THIS IS GENOCIDE! G-E-N-O-C-I-D-E, MURDER THIS IS AN UNFORGIVABLE MISFORTUNE SOLDIERS AREN’T GOING TO HEAVEN FOR SLAUGHTER ARE THEY?! No no I must stay calm that’s a horrid thought, I’m loosing my mind, I, me, won’t be going to heaven the rest will, I hope. Why haven’t I just ended my life already? I don’t see the point in this anymore, three years we have been fighting THREE WHOLE YEARS and there will be more, there’s no sign of surrender from any sides, not with Churchill telling us to go on, and Hitler telling the Germans to go on, I and many others, want this s**t to end, many lives lost, too many lives lost, far to many. I don’t want to live my life in fear, I don’t want to live years of it fighting, I don’t want to go through therapy, I just want a normal life again, if anything can ever be normal again, I fear it can’t, I fear that I will never be normal again, or maybe, just maybe, this is our new normal, what if we live 20+ years still fighting, the economy wouldn’t last, to many people wouldn’t last, it couldn’t go on for 10-20 more years, could it? We are travelling new places everyday, England to France to Spain, Germany, Poland back to England to Germany etc now we have been told we are off to Dunkirk under heavy bombing, shooting, and many will die, will I make it out alive? Do I even want to know whether or not it do?

Author's Note

Hope you enjoy this. I’m still new to writing and it’s 1am so this isn’t my best work but it’s taken me since 10pm as I’m not very creative, please read through it and give some criticism on this piece I would love to improve in anyway possible!

Reviews

[Wherearemysocks]

Well It was too fast paced for me.How about maybe you separate the phrases for a bit.But otherwise I like it.It depicts how a soldier would feel about the war he is in.No one wins in a war I think.Maybe they did overpower the other side,but no one can return the lives lost.Time lost when they should have resolved it in a more peaceful manner.