Amnesia

I remember the sinking fear
as the horrible truth brought on the tears.

I remember lying in bed all night,
broken and sobbing until daylight.

I remember your voice and every word spoken;
it's all tarnished now, every promise broken.

If I could wake up with amnesia I wouldn't know your name.
I'd never know you used me for your twisted little game.

Your smile wouldn't cause these bitter butterflies,
and I wouldn't see your face when I close my eyes.

We were everything to me; so how are you okay?
How did every "I love you" completely fade away?

Didn't you feel anything for me? Anything at all?
Three years together and I was the only one to fall?

I'm tired of the memories, my heart just isn't that strong
to survive the constant replay of how everything went wrong.

I need a double dose of anesthesia,
maybe this time I'll wake up with amnesia.