In-cased in Flesh

I suddenly realized that I see things split in two ways
I have always felt this to be true about myself ever since I can remember
hiding under my bed, scared of my position
a dream that told me not to be afraid
Anything that has ever penetrated me in the wrong way
I found that there was another light to see these situations in.
One of them is in the realms of man, and one of them is in the Light of God.
Opinion vs. Truth
And then here I am, sorta stuck in the middle between these two choices.
soul and spirit in-cased in flesh
I am the observer.
In my own life, and in others'.
I guess this is why my enthusiasm to pull through will remain optimistic
cause I'm not going down that road again
self delusions wrapped in candy
but inside it ain't sweet
so it's not for me
tell me something to hold my head high
cause i get weak, and i don't know why

I guess it's from these feelings that run real deep
but sometimes I know, they're really saying something
I just want to help, i know i truly care
and im sure you know it's hard to do it alone
so can I get that spark to light my life
and can I get it straight from God
cause I cant trust anyone but me
not until someone knows me inside

So here I am, sorting things out
and maybe I'll get it wrong, but maybe not
I can see myself the way others see me
but thats not the true me - so what else can it be?
I am the image of Eve reflected, just like the other daughters
and nothing I do can take that image away - because she is the original woman in me
She is the mother taking care of all the girls
hiding in my hair
Each piece of me has a role to play
and I am here to carry them all
in-cased in flesh