I heard

I heard today that he still smiles when he hears my name. That he gets all glossy eyed whenever they say my name. Heres my thoughts.

I heard something today.

I heard that you get a smile on your face,

At the mere mention of my name.

I heard about your eyes glossing over.

I heard it all.

I wonder if this is really how you feel.

I think I'm trapped in an eternal limbo of you and me.

I ran for my life today as I saw you.

I won't see you again until Monday.

I'm fighting the sick urge I have to write.

Luckily I can no longer pick up the phone.

I'm scared to feel this way.

I'm just stuck in my thoughts.

Trying to picture you smile again.

Living through the scene where I ask you if you still care.

All you can say is "I wouldn't dare."

When I ask for your explination you say nothing.

As I am about to give up and turn away you kiss me like before.

You hold me like you used to.

And we are one like we used to be.

But it won't happen that way.

You'll stop and say it isn't the way.

Or just leave it at not today.

But what does that really mean not today?

Does it mean I should wait?

Does it mean I should stay?

Your not going to say anything.

And I hope that when I say that you have to tell me the truth,

You won't be able to deny me.

I can only hope that the smile is real.

That the glossyness isn't just fake.

Ah to dream or the feeling that I felt yesterday.