Dylan

As I watch the fireworks,
Thinking about the sparkle in your eyes.
How I'm going to miss that,
The softness of your laugh.

Dylan, son of the wave,
Is that why you cry so much?
Your bright blue eyes,
Stained with smoke.

Freshly cut open arms,
Stained with red.
I smelt the drugs,
The deafening silence,

Faintly, I can hear you,
Laughing to something that makes no sense.
That's the beauty,
Nothing makes sense.

Dylan, my favorite name,
My best friend.
I know it was rough,
Now you're gone.

I felt it coming,
The end of you.
Your soul is let free,
Flying through the galaxies.

Dylan Thomas,
What a beautiful name.
You were named after a poet,
You idolized him.

I remember the endless talks,
About him, the way you loved talking about writing.
Now I'm doing it,
Writing about you.

Dylan, a wave of the water,
Drowning slightly in your tears.
Swimming to the end,
Running out of breath.

Dear Dylan,
It's all my fault.
I let a beautiful soul,
Go to waste.

Please forgive me In your afterlife?

Author's Note

Lost my best friend last night, wrote this for him. I hope no one ever has to go through losing someone to suicide. It's the worst feeling possible.

Reviews

[gwendolyn]

The tone of this poem is very respectful, and a well written tribute. I liked how in some of the paragraphs a rhyme could be heard. "Dylan, son of the wave is this why you cry so much?" Your flow with the small repetitions are cleanly displayed. The detail of his suffering and agony is beautifully connected with the usage of water that you connected with him early in the poem to set the entire foundation.

[Caitlin Rhea]

Thank you, the odd thing is, He loved water, and Dylan, the meaning of that name is "son of the wave". I thought it'd be something he would've adored in it. He was everything to me, I think that's why I wrote it. I wasn't trying to get anything out of it. Just trying to let go of my grief.

[gwendolyn]

I think writing this was an excellent choice to release the things you might not have gotten to say to him. You could hear in your tones how much you admired him. Writing, to me, is a great way to peace with whatever the trouble may be. Overall the fact that you chose to have a clean low word amount is what made it that much stronger. Best thing to do is continue to write, however I can't say for certain, just advice. It really sounds like you wrote to him as if it was the last thing you wanted him to hear. To hear how great he was, that is why I think it is more than well done.

[Caitlin Rhea]

Thank you, again. I never told him how amazing he was to me, how caring, how he loved everything, he was a sweet guy. Adorably amused about everything. No one ever told him how much they cared about him. So, I thought if I wrote to him, he would understand how dear he was to me.

[gwendolyn]

We can't ever know for certain what happens after death, but from what you wrote and how much you admired him, I doubt he didn't know you cared. He could probably tell.

[Caitlin Rhea]

I'm not really a religious person, so I don't know. But, out of the times I stayed with him, and took care of him. He knew I cared about him. I still do. He was buried a few days ago, I've went and seen him every day.

[gwendolyn]

There isn't much a person can ask for after losing someone. The fact that he knew you care is the one thing you should be glad he took with him.

[Caitlin Rhea]

Yeah, I guess I always thought eighteen years isn't a long life. I was super excite for is birthday, It's on Halloween, it's a pretty wicked birthday. I guess I just miss him.

[gwendolyn]

The amount of years we spend with the people we love never seems like enough time once we lose them. 18 years is short, but it makes his pain that much more understandable. It must have been enough for him. That is an awesome birthday. You seem like a person that doesn't judge suicides, just accepts them. For you to understand such a strong decision is the best thing for now. And maybe in time, you can celebrate his birthday with life by not mourning him but celebrating a choice he decided. Because he is free of all his pain, and to me that seems like something to celebrate in his honor.

[Caitlin Rhea]

We were never apart, he always lived close to me, I spent almost every wakening minute talking to him, it's upsetting. I don't judge suicides, because I've been there once, I've wanted to end my life, but I found someone worth living for. I wish he could've done that. But, he's better now. And I was actually planning on spending his birthday with him, I know that sounds weird, but He needs someone to wish him a happy 19th.

[gwendolyn]

Spending the day with him on his birthday sounds like a chance for you to release your thoughts alongside him. It's the best thing you can do. May he sleep in peace. Sometimes this life is too cruel to people. Unexpectedly he got the negative side of life too long. He made a decision that everyone should respect. It isn't an easy choice.

[Caitlin Rhea]

Sometimes I feel like He could've been so much more then his past, but I respect him, and his choices. He was a brilliant soul.

[gwendolyn]

I hope you make it through the grief, because it's the only thing you can do. And also to remember him, which I know you will always do by the way you speak of him.

[Caitlin Rhea]

I don't think I'm going through grief, I mean, yeah I'm sad. But I don't really have any strong feelings about losing people.