Serenity

 

Waking up. 7:00 am, enough time to get ready.  5 minutes left, rushing, scrambling everywhere trying not to be late.  Walking into school half an hour early, feeling nervous, anxious.  ”Did I forget something?” All the hectic movement. Like everyone is late for something. “First period upstairs, homework, class work” runs in and out of my mind. Projects, essays, work. I just want to relax.  Finally 3:40 going to my getaway, my safe place. Home. Moms, cooking, pots are overflowing and steaming in the kitchen. Brother’s blasting his stereo, Dads watching the sports on T.V.   It’s like a sonic boom exploded in my family. Everyone is screaming. “I can’t hear the T.V. with that stereo on” my dad yells. So he naturally turns up the volume on the television. I’m getting a headache.  I imagine a lush beautiful lake that looks glossy and frozen like a portrait. I picture a large mountain range in the distance with ongoing trees and valleys. It seems although life and time itself has stopped.  Then suddenly I am not imagining any more I am actually there laying in the grass, unable to move, unable to speak. I see birds, blue jays, bald eagles and owls dancing in the wind.  Small rodents, deer , fox, and moose napping or playing near me.  My family appears, not loud and obnoxious but calm and tranquil. I become quiet in my own state of mind, sleeping and dreaming. I wake up gradually. My family greets me. They send me off. I make my way to a door. Opening the door I find empty hallways.  I see only children learning quietly.  I join them.  Even though it’s in control and calm I still have an amusing time. It is though my mood has changed yet my life is the same. Now I understand the meaning of the saying peace is not found in what surrounds us, but in what we hold within. I find that I have achieved the unknown, a greater meaning, a more peaceful surrounding. I do better in school because I achieved this goal called serenity. I reach my fullest potential. I am committed to this way of life. I hold it within me to be responsible and respect what I have come to in this land

                        in my mind called  Serenity.

Reviews

[Kate]

I like the stream of consciousness technique you've employed. Gives the piece a much more meditative quality, which it seems like you were going for. Nice.