Sing and dance till the end

Old poem written when I was young and questions all things. I learn we are in-charge of our life. Best walk the good road. Written in 1981.

                       
              Sing and dance till the end

The rain is pouring down.
The dusk of the day had passed and gone.
I tossed the empty tequila bottle inside a open trashcan.
Austin, Texas is quiet.
I sat and waited for the coffee shops to open.
Better to be wet then drive drunk to Fort Hood..

I looked at the sky.
Prayed to God for answers to my questions.
The rain fell upon my face.
I saw a phone.

I went to the phone.
I dialed  the operator.
A young woman answered.
I told her "I wanted to speak to God?
I need the phone number to God?'"

The operator paused a second.
Spoke without much thought.
"God is unlisted. Only a friend can give God a call."

I told her.
"My call is important. I must hear his voice.
I must know he gives a damn."

The Operator spoke strongly.
" God phone number is unlisted. Give him a prayer.
He may be listening."

I told her.
" I prayed. He didn't listen.
I think he has forgotten us. I think he has left us."

The Operator with a stern voice .
"Maybe God is busy. You may get lucky. Keep praying."

I heard a clink.
The line is silence.
I walked the quiet streets of Austin in the rain.
A ringing sound appears in my head.
The sound whispered  sounds and voices.
"God is busy. He is drinking tequila with the Angels in Mexico.
He is saying it is too late for man.
Maybe it is a good day to die is singing in my head."
 
I went to downtown Austin.
I like the lights of the city.
Create a strange warmth.

I like the night people.
Few clean people roamed late at night.
You can buy love for a time. You can buy love for the night.

So many stories.
People confused and lost roaming the destine streets.
I asked a lone man standing in the darkness of a corner.
"Did he know the phone number to God?"

He told me.
"Unlisted, only for the pure and the innocent to know."
He give me a big smile. He whispered. "I heard he drinking tequila with
the Angels in Monterrey, Mexico. He is waiting for the end."
The man took my hand. With fear in his eyes he told me.
"A fine day to die."

I leave the man.
He reached in his coat and gave me a toast with his cheap whiskey.
He yelled at me.
"Don't look for God. You will find him and be disappointed."

I become more confused by the second.
I sat in the park by the Austin river.
The bright light of the city is surrounding me.
I stood on the park bench and I yelled.
"God, do you care?"

I looked down.
A  young woman is watching me.
She was young and her eyes were old.
She asked could she  sit with me.

I asked her.  "Why was she here with me."
She answered. "I came to Austin to find beauty and a better place.
I found only a dirty and a cold world. I see you have reach your end too.
Let sit together."

I brought her close to me on the bench. I held her tight. Her soft sad eyes
looked into my eyes. She told me. " You remind me of a lost love. He got
lost in the booze and drugs. He is gone now."

I looked into her brown eyes. I asked her." Does she know the phone number to God?
She looked at the ground and brought her face close to my face. She told me.
"God has left us a long time ago.  Man's deeds were too much for him. He killed off the sea and the sky. Man's killed his brothers without thought. He twisted-up religion to allow killing. He is in Mexico with the Angels. He is saying it is a good day to die."

I brought the young woman closer.
I felt the warmth of her body near. Her soft hands in my hands bring a spark
of hope for a second. Then I become cold again.

I closed my eyes.
I saw a number. I got up and told her. "I know God's phone number."

She smiled.
A smile of pity. She said nothing as I ran for then phone. I dialed the number.
The phone rings and a operator voice appeared.
"I'm sorry the line has been disconnected.  God has took a trip.
Don't leave no messages. He is in Monterrey, Mexico drinking
tequila at the Holiday Inn waiting for the end of time."
 
I fell down.
The phone is hanging. I looked up.
The young woman reached her hands out to me. Pulled me into her arms.
She caressed my face with tender and soft hands.

She told me. "I'm sorry you didn't get hold of God. I tried to find God many times.
I saw what you saw. I felt what you yearn for. God is busy. He is drinking tequila with the Angels at the Holiday Inn in Monterrey waiting for the end."

She kissed my hands and my lips. Told me. "I know I'm ugly with disappointment.
You are not so pretty any more. Let's trick God and the Devil. Let's sing and dance till the end of time. Let's pray the tequila run out and God will taste the bitterness of this world."

I returned the kiss to her. Told her. "Today we will drink and dance. Don't look like a good day to die today. The Devil has won the battle. We will celebrate this day. Sing and dance till the end. We will laugh and try to find some pleasure."

My brown eyes girl gave me a smile. I heard her laughter for the first time. We walked in the dawn of  Austin morning.

We stop by the Austin River. She told me. "I will walk into hell or heaven with my arms wide open. Come with me my sad man. Let's dance and sing till the end."

Two strangers walked into the city hand in hand. Sometime little hope is better then none.

                                  Coyote
                               1981
 

Author's Note

This was a bad time in a life. Young and trying to understand life. I have 15 books of poetry of questions during this time. Most of the question are still not answered. Any error. Please help.

Reviews

[Becky C Strukamp]

This poem speaks so loud and clear of how one may feel when disappointments, tragedies and such enter our life and we wonder why, why does God let this happen? Why why why. When our lives continue to spiral downward, we sometimes do think God is not listening, You penned this beautifully. I love the way you are trying to get God's number to no avail, you dont give up your journey, you continue, A truely amazing poem. I Loved it. Your imagery again, so vidid, lurring us along with you. Magnificent write.

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

What a fantastic piece...........I was riveted, could not stop reading. Wow!

[Thea]

This is...such...an...outstanding...poem!!! I swear! It's so powerful that I can't stop reading some of my favorite lines (too many to mention)...Great job here, Coyote...I really don't find any error on it...Neatly done... :)))

[Jibin]

oh, that's so powerful write, felt it through your words and it is completely a well written poem. I'm just saying, for a little while, somethings hooked up me with this. And somethings felt like just as inside my head.
:)

[Linear]

I know the phone number and he ain't busy, nor is he drinking tequila in a bar in Mexico.


The poem ad a haunting feel to it, with the recuring theme of man's eternal search for God and all the answers.

I Realy did enjoy this piece.

[Laura]

I think this is one of my favorite poems that you've done. I love that you are constantly searching but you don't give up and the poem is so vivid. I can picture the characters and I feel for them. I feel for this poem because it is so strong and powerful and holds so much meaning for me. I really enjoyed it :P

[prodicallife]

Coyote
You play with the words so flawless. you took me to yourself through out the entire time. The best thing along was the God`s phone number. I guess this is the best message you encrypted in the packet of words so smoothley....woowwwww....

God is evrywhere where evr we wish to have him, though he never carries a cell phone along with him but has the ability to take millions of crore calls evry minute.

we are really blessed on that part. and a big thank u for that beautifull writting.
aah your words refreshed me.

what an excellent pieace of work

Regards
PRODICAL

[light and ashes]

This poem is excellent. I love the point of it. When tragedies strike we do most often feel like God has completely left us alone in the world. Such a lovely way of expressing these feelings. You ended it very well also. This poem is one of endurance, and sometimes thats exactly what we need in life.

[LA Lorena]

I think this is my favourite writing of yours to date. There is such a beautiful sadness and loneliness to this, but yet, still an underlying hope. As always, I love your style that shines through most clearly in all your work...it is always so refreshingly and uniquely YOU.

[PrincessZeldaWannabe]

Really sweet and well-written with the feeling that I am in the desert!

[Sheila Kline]

You never post a write that I don't enjoy!! Yes, sometime little hope is better than none. And, the line about "Let's dance and sing till the end"....just awesome my friend!!