Seconds in time

What would we say to the people who were kind and generous to you? To be able to say goodbye to loves one's who died when you were away.

                                










                                        












                                       Seconds in time


             I learn in a bloody crazy life.


             Seconds become so important.

             I went to war in 1991.
             I called my Gandfather Reyes from Kuwait.
             My sister answered the phone.
             Told me he was dead.
             He died and she didn't want me to be sad.
             Was waiting till I returned.
             I fell down and cried. Wishing to hear his voice.
             I remembered his words. "Stand strong and
              do the right things. A man's is responsible
              for his actions."
              I wished to see him one more time.
             To thank him for his care and love. 


             I held my poor sister at her daughter funeral.
             Her baby girl died for unknown reason in the night.
             I whispered I wished I spend more time with her.
             I was just too damn busy.
        

             She whispered I want my baby back.
             Her sad eyes filled with tears.
             Her broken heart was bringing her into 
             a permanent hell.

              
              She was wishing for one more second.
              To be with her baby girl.
              One more second to hold her baby.
               Be able to tell her Angel
               I love you with all my heart.


               I stood by my brother's casket.
               I cried I wish I was kinder and a friend.
               I wished I told him. " I loved you.
               I wished we celebrated being alive together."


               His twisted life left him alone and afraid.
               Like all fool's.
               I wished to take back the bad discussions.
               I wish I was wiser and kinder.


               My Father fought the Doctor and Nurses.
               I drove 1500 mile to Virginia to be with him.
               He begs me to take him home to die.
               He waited three days for me to arrive.
               He told me "I had to see you my son.
               Tell you.  I love you and I'm so proud of you. "

              He told me.
              Me and your brother's will be waiting for you at the
              big pow wow in Native America paradise.
               I held his hand till he went to the Native American
               hunting ground.
              
               Beautiful Grandma lay in her hospital bed.
               She told me "I love you my sweetie. You will always be
               my baby."
               I sat with her.
               Not wanting to let her go.
               I held on to her every word.
               

               She went to paradise in peace.
               I whispered Lord.
               "Take a new Angel home with open arms.
                She need to dance with Grandfather again." 


               I learn the hard way.
               Be kind in your words in a goodbye.
               Never leave with the last words.
               That were of anger and disappointment.
                 

               Tell them you love them and will miss them.
                Have fun and be safe.


                Today I miss the laughter and voices of
                so many people in my life.


                I wish for more time with them.
                A few more seconds to thank them for their love.
                Thank them for  their example and friendship.

                     Coyote
                        Nov. 2009

Author's Note

Seconds are important. Need to leave family and friends with kind words. Hug and sweet kisses are the memories we need to hold on to. Memorial day is coming. Think of the good people in a life. I will.

Reviews

[☯]

A very meaningful and sad but beautiful poem. I like how the theme reflected real memories and real moral and lessons you attained throughout time and sadness. I feel that seconds are also very important, and we should leave with kind words even if we start with hateful. I was deeply depressed when my grandfather passed away because I never got to speak with him in the last months. A strong and lovely poem.

[Chris Smith Welshpoetcs]

Each second is a heart beat that has left us, passing us so quickly. We blink and they are gone, this is an emotional and moving poem my friend.

[Poetic Beauty]

This is a beautiful but sad piece of loosing the ones you love. Your words are wise that we need to think about the words we use carefully for the those words could be the last ones our loved ones and friends may hear. We do need to take more time out of our busy lives to enjoy and cherish the ones we love. This is a great reminder of how we should do it often. The personal details make this poem speak louder to the reader. You may never know what tomorrow could bring.

[brenda]

coyote, this is such a beautiful poem you see this is what it feels like when you are immgrant you leave your family and you dont see them for seven years you know what it is to leave them at a young age and when you come back your are just so damn guilty that you dont remenber the case tht i can relate to this a lot was with my grandma i saw her summer afte summer she had lung cancer i spoke with her on the phone she told she was going to live the only hope was to see her this year in summer but sadly she died and i never got to say goodbye or spend more time with her i miss her so much she was my second mother at least shes good now up in heaven thank you for the poem
- brenda

[TJ]

This was amazing I really liked this. Very emotional and personal tone! This obviously written from the heart, I could almost HEAR these words as I read this! Very good message as well

[anne p. murray- LadeeAn..]

Boy, I was feeling tears fill my eyes while reading this magnificent write.
It sounds like you've experienced many losses, as have I ans so many others.
I could also say to myself, a lot of; "I wish I had."
It seems like we take life for granted so many times, not realizing that in a blink of an eye, life could send us whirling to uncharted waters of sorrow and grief.
I appreciate you sharing this writing with us, my humble heart says, "Thank you"
Thank you.

[Dupree]

Amazing piece Coyote. I love this, sad as it is. Makes me think of when my grandfather died. Love this coyote

[AngelAfterlife]

beautiful work you created here. i loved it

[An owl on the moon]

What your powerfully profound words do is wake us all up from our living slumber.. awaken us to those in our lives that we need to thank.. need to say "I love you..." Too much time is taken up with trivial things.. Those in our lives must be our priority.. Thank you for your honest write that speaks into the heart.

[A Risen Heroine.]

Great job!
Keep up the good work.

~A Fallen Heroine~

[Priyankaabhilaashi]

Great thought and kind deeds pays-off..!!!

Fantastic Work..!!!