You have saved me

For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.

                   

    






















   You have saved me

I remember sitting alone. Holding two brothers photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.

Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.

I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn't see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.

The phone  started to ring. I answered the call.

A old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
"We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Ok? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong."

I hung the phone up.
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow I needed kind words. She saved me.














   















I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t.

My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.

My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.

I went to her.
I found her crying.

She yelled at me.
Told me he is dead. Are you happy?

I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.

I brought her good whiskey and food.
Insured she was Ok.

She asked "Why was I  being kind to her?
I wasn't kind to you."

I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too.


Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness need time and a lot of love.

We must be saved and we must return the kindness.

Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
  
                         Coyote
                      March  2011

Author's Note

Any mistakes. Please advice. Never too old to learn. Life is hard. We will need many people to assist and love us.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Mistakes don't matter when someone writes from the heart. To alter a poet or writer's words is like removing a freckle ..

What a wonderful tribute to those very precious people in your life.. This truly is more than sincere .. more than special. Thank you so much for sharing.

[Zackery Alan Daley]

Speechless...too great for a babbling banter of random compliments. This is truly a BEAST of a poem.

[Star Wolf]

This is very touching and deeply moving. How wonderful it is to have people like this in our lives, those who make such a profound difference, sometimes perhaps not even realizing it. Awesome poem and real life story!

[Amy Bumpas]

This is a nice story, and I can relate to being close to a
grandma. She never let me down when I was growing up,
and was always there. Laughter is life, and so is having
the people around you that you love. I like the added
touch of the pictures too.

[Priyankaabhilaashi]

Helping someone is the best thing one can ever do..!!!! Great Write, Sir..!!!

[M.Babu]

"I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too."
Liked this part so much! You have a great way of oozing so much emotion into your work. It tells a great story that we should all heed. Life has its share of turbulence and surviving it sometimes takes a vigilant team effort.

You've really told this well Coyote. In your own words: 'An excellent piece!' Wonderful!

[Lily Mae]

It's in your Grandmothers knowing and in your heart of knowing.. I love this very much ..it pulls at my hearts own memories of times only we know..xx

[cfix]

Such a deep powerful write. So much real and raw emotion.
Life is a very hard task, we all must live it the best way we
know how. If we get help it's much better, we know that
someone does care. Well done!

[JENY]

very touching....and candid expression of your feelings...
on reading the lines...
"I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love.
I saw no reason to give a s**t."
feel that ...there is something common ...between us...
liked the poem so much

[Ashesh]

As much as I read you man! you unravel new dynamics to your being. There is lot to learn from you.
"I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye.
I tried to save her.
Somehow I saved myself too."
.. that was very comforting. thanks brother, for sharing such a wonderful poem.

[typingaway]

Wow, amazing write!
It shows not to take your loved ones for granted, because they may be the ones saving their live...
Keep up the good work!!